Kansha Kangeki Amearashi
感謝カンゲキ雨嵐
Kansha Kangeki Amearashi...It's thanks to the RainStorm that I found myself again.
火曜日, 11月 30, 2004
And so it was yesterday.
Prom Night.
Contrary to my own expectations, I didn't cry...but it was all so surreal, dancing the family dance for the very last time, singing that school song for the very last time...yet I was too numb to cry.
Or maybe it's also because I know that I'll see my friends and classmates once again, when we collect our 'O' level results.
I'll miss our days as Loyalty. I'll miss my 4 years in this school. Because despite the fact that I had quite a few less than pleasant experiences, ultimately I gained friends...gained experience...gained knowledge. And on the whole, it was a fun-filled, exciting 4 years.
All has been said and done
Goodbye, St Nicks...
Where fate will lead me next, I don't know.
Everyone (well, almost everyone) looked really lovely yesterday. Some were nearly unrecognisable (in a good way). Seeing everyone, even the most tomboyish, in gowns/dresses/skirts...as I said just now, surreal. All these years I've never seen most of them in anything but their pinafores, and now...:)
But some ppl overdid their makeup. An article in Sunday Life! once said that girls our age tend to look like 1/a bride 2. a getai singer 3. a clown or 4. a combination of all 3 on their prom nites. There's another to add to the list: a hooker.
Someone(I shall not name who, see if u can guess) looked exactly that, among the few 'brides' and 'getai singers' I spotted who were thankfully, the exception and not the norm. Her dress didn't help matters, only served the strengthen the image that she somehow turned up at the wrong place on her way to Orchard towers/Geylang/some seedy bar to conduct 'business'/rushed to City hall from her 'business' at Geylang. Oh well...I'm not denying that I'm gloating. Hopefully her dress and makeup sense will improve in time for her JC prom, or the guys may just start prepositioning her.
My own makeup didn't turn out exactly as I'd planned (no thanks to bad skin) but it was ok. Quite a few ppl told me they liked my necklace...believe it or not it cost $4(or was it $5?) at J8! lolz...Maybelline's mum said I looked like a certain Chinese DJ (Wu Anya, if I didn't remember wrongly)..I was like, "Huh?" lolx. First my mum said I look like CNA's Suzanne Jung (the last time I did the same makeup to show her what I planned to do on prom nite), then...umz...lolz. I iwsh I had more height though. Everyone's already taller than me, then they were heels and I'm wearig 1/2inches....Some of my friends had to take off their heels whenever they took a photograph with me.
And yes, December, nobody gave me grief over my film camera. My school is not as hung up over such stuff as your school/circle of friends is. In fact quite a few ppl brought film cameras as well. Hey, a camera is a camera, and to judge someone over what type of camera she brings is really shallow.
Even professional photographers still use film cameras.
Cheryl sings really beautifully...the duet with Mr (Geraint) Wong was amazing! I'm inspired...maybe I should rejoin the choir in JC? If I can take 2 CCAs.
Maybelline and Gwen--go Karaoke with me one of these days!!!!!!!!!!Earplugs are welcome lolx.
Gwen...I think I want to take up that job at Tangs/ Takashimaya after all. Hey, pay is still pay :D But have to be prepared to bear with unreasonable customers.
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Prom Night.
Contrary to my own expectations, I didn't cry...but it was all so surreal, dancing the family dance for the very last time, singing that school song for the very last time...yet I was too numb to cry.
Or maybe it's also because I know that I'll see my friends and classmates once again, when we collect our 'O' level results.
I'll miss our days as Loyalty. I'll miss my 4 years in this school. Because despite the fact that I had quite a few less than pleasant experiences, ultimately I gained friends...gained experience...gained knowledge. And on the whole, it was a fun-filled, exciting 4 years.
All has been said and done
Goodbye, St Nicks...
Where fate will lead me next, I don't know.
Everyone (well, almost everyone) looked really lovely yesterday. Some were nearly unrecognisable (in a good way). Seeing everyone, even the most tomboyish, in gowns/dresses/skirts...as I said just now, surreal. All these years I've never seen most of them in anything but their pinafores, and now...:)
But some ppl overdid their makeup. An article in Sunday Life! once said that girls our age tend to look like 1/a bride 2. a getai singer 3. a clown or 4. a combination of all 3 on their prom nites. There's another to add to the list: a hooker.
Someone(I shall not name who, see if u can guess) looked exactly that, among the few 'brides' and 'getai singers' I spotted who were thankfully, the exception and not the norm. Her dress didn't help matters, only served the strengthen the image that she somehow turned up at the wrong place on her way to Orchard towers/Geylang/some seedy bar to conduct 'business'/rushed to City hall from her 'business' at Geylang. Oh well...I'm not denying that I'm gloating. Hopefully her dress and makeup sense will improve in time for her JC prom, or the guys may just start prepositioning her.
My own makeup didn't turn out exactly as I'd planned (no thanks to bad skin) but it was ok. Quite a few ppl told me they liked my necklace...believe it or not it cost $4(or was it $5?) at J8! lolz...Maybelline's mum said I looked like a certain Chinese DJ (Wu Anya, if I didn't remember wrongly)..I was like, "Huh?" lolx. First my mum said I look like CNA's Suzanne Jung (the last time I did the same makeup to show her what I planned to do on prom nite), then...umz...lolz. I iwsh I had more height though. Everyone's already taller than me, then they were heels and I'm wearig 1/2inches....Some of my friends had to take off their heels whenever they took a photograph with me.
And yes, December, nobody gave me grief over my film camera. My school is not as hung up over such stuff as your school/circle of friends is. In fact quite a few ppl brought film cameras as well. Hey, a camera is a camera, and to judge someone over what type of camera she brings is really shallow.
Even professional photographers still use film cameras.
Cheryl sings really beautifully...the duet with Mr (Geraint) Wong was amazing! I'm inspired...maybe I should rejoin the choir in JC? If I can take 2 CCAs.
Maybelline and Gwen--go Karaoke with me one of these days!!!!!!!!!!Earplugs are welcome lolx.
Gwen...I think I want to take up that job at Tangs/ Takashimaya after all. Hey, pay is still pay :D But have to be prepared to bear with unreasonable customers.
金曜日, 11月 26, 2004
Happy Birthday to Ohno-kun, Arashi's Leader!! Lolz...wonder what present Nino will give in in return for that suit with the price tag and "on sale 1900 yen" sticker attached that Ohno gave him on his birthday...*sweatdrops*
Stayed up till 3am last night reading this really touching book by Goh Sin Tub. "The Nan-mei-su girls of Emerald Hill". I wish I'd read that book when I was still writing my fanfic "All For Love"...
I love local writers. I think I read more local writers than foreign writers. Local writers are just as good! Catherine Lim, Suchen Christine Lim, Goh Sin Tub, etc etc. Many of their stories give a glance into what old Singapore was like....interesting anecdotes, etc etc. I guess i read too many books by foreign authors in primary school, so now I'm reading a LOT of local writers to make up for it. And reading their books gives me more of a sense of my own identity, as a Singaporean, and as a Singaporean-Chinese. I no longer want to be 'white' like I used to.
Hope I get into Meridian!!
Anyone wants to go with me to the Shiseido PN makeover? I think I'm going tomorrow. Meant to go today but then kenneth asked, "Want to meet up today? Go and see Meridian?" so I'm going MJC instead.
MJ's a good school. Even if I leave it after the 1st 3 months I'll still be proud of it WHEN (not IF) it becomes top 3!!!
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Stayed up till 3am last night reading this really touching book by Goh Sin Tub. "The Nan-mei-su girls of Emerald Hill". I wish I'd read that book when I was still writing my fanfic "All For Love"...
I love local writers. I think I read more local writers than foreign writers. Local writers are just as good! Catherine Lim, Suchen Christine Lim, Goh Sin Tub, etc etc. Many of their stories give a glance into what old Singapore was like....interesting anecdotes, etc etc. I guess i read too many books by foreign authors in primary school, so now I'm reading a LOT of local writers to make up for it. And reading their books gives me more of a sense of my own identity, as a Singaporean, and as a Singaporean-Chinese. I no longer want to be 'white' like I used to.
Hope I get into Meridian!!
Anyone wants to go with me to the Shiseido PN makeover? I think I'm going tomorrow. Meant to go today but then kenneth asked, "Want to meet up today? Go and see Meridian?" so I'm going MJC instead.
MJ's a good school. Even if I leave it after the 1st 3 months I'll still be proud of it WHEN (not IF) it becomes top 3!!!
水曜日, 11月 24, 2004
Watching the "real Life" programme on bullying on CNA today brought back memories of -u guessed it-- Sec 2.
I should have put it behind me long ago and I guess I more or less have, but thinking about it back then, I wonder if things could have turned out differently if a teacher had tried to intervene.
It was defnitely bullying, but I don't think we, at the age of 14, knew it. To them, they were just giving me my just deserts...i have to admit I sort of deserved what I got. But they were mean. And if only Ms Ng had intervened...
I still feel a little angry whenever I think of it. by 'intervened', i don't mean simply tell them "Stop it!"--that way would work for primary school students but not for 14 year olds. Perhaps some mediation would have been good...or she could have explained to me clearly why the class did not like me, and I would certainly have watched myself and tried to change before things got out of hand...but she knew all along and she didn't. Maybe she was just inexperienced? To me,she was biased towards them all along...
If I were weaker, frailer, perhaps I would have collapsed and committed suicide before I finished sec 2. But I'm proud to say I didn't. How I survived, I don't know. I don't think anyone would understand how I felt then unless they've ever gone through the same thing--the same torment.
It's made me a stronger person.
But I still get upset and angry when I think of how our very own form teacher, who could have stepped in, did not.
What if I'd killed myself?
How many children and teens commit suicide as a result of bullying each year? Perhaps they could have been saved if a teacher, a parent--any adult-- had stepped in.
At the end of sec 2 I'd written a long letter to Ms Ng telling her abt what was happening to me...was going to drop it into her locker but decoded against it. Why? Because I just realised that she probably would not understand...would just say it was all my fault...as usual.
Yes, it was partly my fault. But their torment,, teasing, bitching, name calling...was all too much.
No one would understand how it felt unless they'd experienced it firsthand.
Got my contact lenses today! :D
Then went to Bugis Junction, and straight to Missha, this shop that sells Korean cosmetics at reasonable prices. Got this 'pearl eyeliner' there...it's a glittery liquid eyeliner. Figured I'd need longer lasting makeup if I was going to be reporting at 2.30pm for a 6.30pm prom (:P Of course Geraint Wong wouldn't understand the concept of 'fading makeup', he is male after all. Unless...mwahahahaha). Think I will go back to the same shop the next time I need makeup.
I'm really going to Meridian JC. This JC really appeals to me! Of course RJC appeals much more, but for the 1st 3 mths, since i can't get into the top 5, Meridian's the nxt best choice. I wouldn't mind ACJC too but dun c the pt of going there if it doesn't have HEP.
Meridian may be new but it packs a punch!
Some reasons I chose to go there:
1. It's new! No fixed conceptions abt this school, at least, nt yet. New schools have new concepts and it'd be interesting to go there and experience it.
2. To be the 2nd batch and aactually be part of a cohort that contributes to outsiders' impressions and ideas of the school...to play a part in helping the school gain its very first achievement, and build it's reputation...current batches in established schools have their reputations built for them. Students in new schools build their own reputations.
Even if it's just for the 1st 3 months.
3. I have one cousin going there and possibly another! If only Edwin could go there...hahax all my male cousins my age will be going there and almost my whole family will be there. How fun! Wonder what sch my (only female cousin my age) Joyce will choose...later also Meridian then WAHAH!
4. distance from home: MJ is more convenient to get to from my home compared to NYJC
5. Location: The more different the route to RJC the better. I'll be heartbroken when i see RJC ppl lol. The route to Meridian takes me East, the route to RJ is North...and these 2 arrows pointing on opposite diirections (mrt west to city hall then change north) will never meet!
Of course, the down side is the lack of a nice range of CCAs to choose from...maybe I'll join choir. Like I did in pr sch. Or college publications.
Think i've blogged enuf. Jaa
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I should have put it behind me long ago and I guess I more or less have, but thinking about it back then, I wonder if things could have turned out differently if a teacher had tried to intervene.
It was defnitely bullying, but I don't think we, at the age of 14, knew it. To them, they were just giving me my just deserts...i have to admit I sort of deserved what I got. But they were mean. And if only Ms Ng had intervened...
I still feel a little angry whenever I think of it. by 'intervened', i don't mean simply tell them "Stop it!"--that way would work for primary school students but not for 14 year olds. Perhaps some mediation would have been good...or she could have explained to me clearly why the class did not like me, and I would certainly have watched myself and tried to change before things got out of hand...but she knew all along and she didn't. Maybe she was just inexperienced? To me,she was biased towards them all along...
If I were weaker, frailer, perhaps I would have collapsed and committed suicide before I finished sec 2. But I'm proud to say I didn't. How I survived, I don't know. I don't think anyone would understand how I felt then unless they've ever gone through the same thing--the same torment.
It's made me a stronger person.
But I still get upset and angry when I think of how our very own form teacher, who could have stepped in, did not.
What if I'd killed myself?
How many children and teens commit suicide as a result of bullying each year? Perhaps they could have been saved if a teacher, a parent--any adult-- had stepped in.
At the end of sec 2 I'd written a long letter to Ms Ng telling her abt what was happening to me...was going to drop it into her locker but decoded against it. Why? Because I just realised that she probably would not understand...would just say it was all my fault...as usual.
Yes, it was partly my fault. But their torment,, teasing, bitching, name calling...was all too much.
No one would understand how it felt unless they'd experienced it firsthand.
Got my contact lenses today! :D
Then went to Bugis Junction, and straight to Missha, this shop that sells Korean cosmetics at reasonable prices. Got this 'pearl eyeliner' there...it's a glittery liquid eyeliner. Figured I'd need longer lasting makeup if I was going to be reporting at 2.30pm for a 6.30pm prom (:P Of course Geraint Wong wouldn't understand the concept of 'fading makeup', he is male after all. Unless...mwahahahaha). Think I will go back to the same shop the next time I need makeup.
I'm really going to Meridian JC. This JC really appeals to me! Of course RJC appeals much more, but for the 1st 3 mths, since i can't get into the top 5, Meridian's the nxt best choice. I wouldn't mind ACJC too but dun c the pt of going there if it doesn't have HEP.
Meridian may be new but it packs a punch!
Some reasons I chose to go there:
1. It's new! No fixed conceptions abt this school, at least, nt yet. New schools have new concepts and it'd be interesting to go there and experience it.
2. To be the 2nd batch and aactually be part of a cohort that contributes to outsiders' impressions and ideas of the school...to play a part in helping the school gain its very first achievement, and build it's reputation...current batches in established schools have their reputations built for them. Students in new schools build their own reputations.
Even if it's just for the 1st 3 months.
3. I have one cousin going there and possibly another! If only Edwin could go there...hahax all my male cousins my age will be going there and almost my whole family will be there. How fun! Wonder what sch my (only female cousin my age) Joyce will choose...later also Meridian then WAHAH!
4. distance from home: MJ is more convenient to get to from my home compared to NYJC
5. Location: The more different the route to RJC the better. I'll be heartbroken when i see RJC ppl lol. The route to Meridian takes me East, the route to RJ is North...and these 2 arrows pointing on opposite diirections (mrt west to city hall then change north) will never meet!
Of course, the down side is the lack of a nice range of CCAs to choose from...maybe I'll join choir. Like I did in pr sch. Or college publications.
Think i've blogged enuf. Jaa
火曜日, 11月 23, 2004
I've finally changed the song on my blog after nearly a year! This song is dedicated to all my friends in St Nicks...all my friends and classmates. It's got a nostalgic tune...nostalgic lyrics. Just like Pika**nchi Double.
I've romanised and translated the lyrics too so those who are curious about what the lyrics really mean, it's down there below the japanese lyrics.Even if Jpop isn't really your thing, enjoy the melody.
嵐で、「途中下車」
My absolute favourite non-single song on Iza, Now
Someone may not be whom I thought they were for 4 years...of course I may be wrong, but if my gut sense doesn't lie...but it doesn't really matter. She was just an acquaintance all along. Not a really close friend or anything. But I'm still a little sad.
It's strange how much I feel sad when someone I've always thought I got along well with, or someone I can trust, turns out to have disliked me all along she was smiling and laughing with me. I know now that it's human nature, to some it's easier to be nice to a person than be mean, although you might really hate her. In the past, I guess i was a little too innocent, thinking that those who were nice to me despite disliking me were hypocritical. But now I've realised, lines aren't drawn that clearly. You just can't simply say that those who hate you and show it are better than those who realy dislike you but don't show you that. Maybe those who don't express their dislike for someone by being mean to her have more of a heart or conscience than those who do. Others may say these people are cowards. It's all a matter of opinion, but it's still human nature.
Can't wait for this Friday's tuition class gathering, and this sunday's party at Jianrong's house!!
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I've romanised and translated the lyrics too so those who are curious about what the lyrics really mean, it's down there below the japanese lyrics.Even if Jpop isn't really your thing, enjoy the melody.
嵐で、「途中下車」
My absolute favourite non-single song on Iza, Now
Someone may not be whom I thought they were for 4 years...of course I may be wrong, but if my gut sense doesn't lie...but it doesn't really matter. She was just an acquaintance all along. Not a really close friend or anything. But I'm still a little sad.
It's strange how much I feel sad when someone I've always thought I got along well with, or someone I can trust, turns out to have disliked me all along she was smiling and laughing with me. I know now that it's human nature, to some it's easier to be nice to a person than be mean, although you might really hate her. In the past, I guess i was a little too innocent, thinking that those who were nice to me despite disliking me were hypocritical. But now I've realised, lines aren't drawn that clearly. You just can't simply say that those who hate you and show it are better than those who realy dislike you but don't show you that. Maybe those who don't express their dislike for someone by being mean to her have more of a heart or conscience than those who do. Others may say these people are cowards. It's all a matter of opinion, but it's still human nature.
Can't wait for this Friday's tuition class gathering, and this sunday's party at Jianrong's house!!
月曜日, 11月 22, 2004
F:
Your Beauty liesin Contradiction. Controversial, unpredictable, and
never what anyone expects.You appearance and your personality are two
opposite things. Even yourappearance sends different signals to different
people. To some you may lookinnocent and sweet, to others you look mysterious
and intimidating at the sametime. No one ever knows what to expect with you.
You are a little bit ofeverything all mixed together. You can be watching
the football game with theguys one minute and the next out shopping at the
mall. You seem to be almost adifferent person every time you meet someone, but
at the same time you knowexactly who you are and there is always that one
thing that makes you you. Youenjoy keeping people guessing and people love how
completely unpredictable youare.
Some ThingsThat Represent You:
Element:Fire, Water Animal: Chameleon Color:
Dark Tones, LightTones Song: Everything by Alanis Morriesette
Expression:Half-smile
Gemstone:Opal Mythological Creature: Gryphon,
Half-breeds Sign:Gemini Planet: Mars Hair Color: Red
Eye Color:Brown
Quote:"Appearances can be deceiving."
Where Does Your Beauty Lie? ..::Original Pictures Are Back! Detailed Results::..
brought to you by
Guess It's kind of true. I AM Gemini.
日曜日, 11月 21, 2004
EXAMS ARE OVER!!!
i found my shoes for prom night yesterday!! Really in love with them...hahax now i don't have to wear zori to prom nite after all XD. It's not a pair of heels (pity...but mum won't sponsor heels...) but It's a little like ballet shoes except that it's more of a sandal than shoes...no not the flats that are so in fashion nowadays...i'll leave it all to ur imagination :D
Can wave gdbye to the Japan version ltd edition of 5x5...sighz...but and the DVD included. But by buying the normal version I'm supporting them too...I can listen to La Tormenta all I like, on my discman, but I can't watch a DVD with my discman all the time...
Wonder if CNA really has any vacancy...I'm inexperienced in such stuff, so I'm still wondering if my email to them enquiring about an internship was appropriate...these things count.
I wish i got paid to translate (bitter laughter)...I mean, I love translating stuff for people, and I'm more than happy translating Arashi songs and articles to share with other fans. But it'd be nice if it were a real job, lolx...but since that's impossible...if I can't get internship...will just give out flyers/do surveys etc etc to earn some $.
I doubt they want a translator who hasn't even gotten her 'O' level results yet and still needs to check up her dictionary every now and then when she translates anyway...
I just realized (again) that in Pika*nchi, released in 2002, Sho's character was called Chuu, a nickname for his real name Tadashi 忠. And the class I was put into the next year(Loyalty) , also has that character as its Chinese name (Tadashi means 'loyalty' anyway). What a coincidence lol... but my class isn't full of 'yankees' (as they call hooligans and gangsters in Japan) with regent hairstyles like Chuu. Lol.
If Vic really chooses to go to Meridian JC...then all my cousins on my dad's side who can go to JC nxt year will be going Meridian. Me, I'm wondering whether I should go ACJC, NYJC or Meridian. Each has its merits, but I won't stay in ACJC beyond the 1st 3 months...I think. Vanessa and WeiLing are in AC, which has HEP (if I'm not wrong)...nice to have seniors there...Maybelline's going NY which isn't a bad JC either...and if i go MJ I'll have Junrong, Kenneth and maybe Vic (?) MJ made it to top 10 in its 1st year, as Kenneth told me...and that's quite an achievement: 1st year! It'd be fun in a considerably new JC with friends and relatives around lol...but no HEP.
Speaking about Vic...I was really sad when I visited grandma at his home yesterday...We didn't say more than 'Hi" to each other....he hung out more with his siblings and i didn't really know what to talk to him about, knowing that certain topics may be sensitive...I'm glad he can go to JC. Guess he's really bloomed? But I miss the days when we were little and would play all day...though it took a little time to warm up to each other each visit, by the end of the day we'd have had so much fun I didn't want to leave. What happened to that? He's my cousin but it was almost like we were strangers yesterday...very awkward. With edwin there'd be the music and everything else, same with Kenneth...but what happened to the fun Vic and I used to have together? I wish we were as close as we used to be.
I realise that I haven't seen Elvin for nearly half a year...his job just keeps him so busy. Even when his parents come over to visit and chat, he's either overseas or stuck in the office, as it was during Yang biogge's wedding a few weeks ago. I sort of miss him. He's almost like an elder brother to me, giving me advice over what to do, what subjects to take, which school to choose, etc etc.
Wonder if that's what Sho's younger sister and brother feel? His job takes him away from home most of the time, either that or he reaches home really late.
Of course it'd be best if one didn't have to sacrifice family time for work. In The future, I'd love to have a job that allows ample family time. But how many of such jobs are there? When the time comes, i know I'll almost definitely have to choose between my ideal job which probably would take me away from my family a lot, and another job, not so ideal, that allowed for family.
I guess I'm still a conservative girl, not one of those power women who would sacrifice family for work and success.
It isn't, and won't be, easy to juggle both career and family at the same time. Will I be up to it?
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i found my shoes for prom night yesterday!! Really in love with them...hahax now i don't have to wear zori to prom nite after all XD. It's not a pair of heels (pity...but mum won't sponsor heels...) but It's a little like ballet shoes except that it's more of a sandal than shoes...no not the flats that are so in fashion nowadays...i'll leave it all to ur imagination :D
Can wave gdbye to the Japan version ltd edition of 5x5...sighz...but and the DVD included. But by buying the normal version I'm supporting them too...I can listen to La Tormenta all I like, on my discman, but I can't watch a DVD with my discman all the time...
Wonder if CNA really has any vacancy...I'm inexperienced in such stuff, so I'm still wondering if my email to them enquiring about an internship was appropriate...these things count.
I wish i got paid to translate (bitter laughter)...I mean, I love translating stuff for people, and I'm more than happy translating Arashi songs and articles to share with other fans. But it'd be nice if it were a real job, lolx...but since that's impossible...if I can't get internship...will just give out flyers/do surveys etc etc to earn some $.
I doubt they want a translator who hasn't even gotten her 'O' level results yet and still needs to check up her dictionary every now and then when she translates anyway...
I just realized (again) that in Pika*nchi, released in 2002, Sho's character was called Chuu, a nickname for his real name Tadashi 忠. And the class I was put into the next year(Loyalty) , also has that character as its Chinese name (Tadashi means 'loyalty' anyway). What a coincidence lol... but my class isn't full of 'yankees' (as they call hooligans and gangsters in Japan) with regent hairstyles like Chuu. Lol.
If Vic really chooses to go to Meridian JC...then all my cousins on my dad's side who can go to JC nxt year will be going Meridian. Me, I'm wondering whether I should go ACJC, NYJC or Meridian. Each has its merits, but I won't stay in ACJC beyond the 1st 3 months...I think. Vanessa and WeiLing are in AC, which has HEP (if I'm not wrong)...nice to have seniors there...Maybelline's going NY which isn't a bad JC either...and if i go MJ I'll have Junrong, Kenneth and maybe Vic (?) MJ made it to top 10 in its 1st year, as Kenneth told me...and that's quite an achievement: 1st year! It'd be fun in a considerably new JC with friends and relatives around lol...but no HEP.
Speaking about Vic...I was really sad when I visited grandma at his home yesterday...We didn't say more than 'Hi" to each other....he hung out more with his siblings and i didn't really know what to talk to him about, knowing that certain topics may be sensitive...I'm glad he can go to JC. Guess he's really bloomed? But I miss the days when we were little and would play all day...though it took a little time to warm up to each other each visit, by the end of the day we'd have had so much fun I didn't want to leave. What happened to that? He's my cousin but it was almost like we were strangers yesterday...very awkward. With edwin there'd be the music and everything else, same with Kenneth...but what happened to the fun Vic and I used to have together? I wish we were as close as we used to be.
I realise that I haven't seen Elvin for nearly half a year...his job just keeps him so busy. Even when his parents come over to visit and chat, he's either overseas or stuck in the office, as it was during Yang biogge's wedding a few weeks ago. I sort of miss him. He's almost like an elder brother to me, giving me advice over what to do, what subjects to take, which school to choose, etc etc.
Wonder if that's what Sho's younger sister and brother feel? His job takes him away from home most of the time, either that or he reaches home really late.
Of course it'd be best if one didn't have to sacrifice family time for work. In The future, I'd love to have a job that allows ample family time. But how many of such jobs are there? When the time comes, i know I'll almost definitely have to choose between my ideal job which probably would take me away from my family a lot, and another job, not so ideal, that allowed for family.
I guess I'm still a conservative girl, not one of those power women who would sacrifice family for work and success.
It isn't, and won't be, easy to juggle both career and family at the same time. Will I be up to it?