Getting kind of nervous...prelims start next week...I'm okay about some subjects but I'm really really worried about lit, chem and hcl...my lit grades fluctuate and as for chem and hcl...dun even talk about it, they usually teeter over the age, who knows which side of the passing mark they fall into this time? (ok, so my Chinese grades are in a safer zone than my chem grades)
Downloading my school's past yr's papers n emailing them to December too (finally). I can't really on just 10 yr series, ESPECIALLY for Chem.
Can't wait to meet up with the iro girls again, probably some time this week...after that I'll throw myself fully into exams, exams, exams...
If Sho knew that whenever I feel like giving up, I juz have to look at his photo in my wallet and I'll be encouraged...lol.
I don't usually get so nervous and panicky about exams, but this is different, because how well I do in prelims determines whether I'll be able to be in RJC for the 1st 3 mths, and how well I do in the 'O's determines whether I'll get to stay there for the next 2 yrs. it's a scary thought...when an exam determines where you'll be in the future...
Then there's the JLPT which I've finally signed up for....Level3... I wouldn't have signed up if I weren't confident I'd pass it, and I still have 2 wks to prepare for it after my 'O's...but will RJ (if I do manage to get in) allow me into their JEP with just that even though I don't take 3rd lang? JEP or Humanities Scholarship? If I do manage to qualify for both which will I choose? Both are my passions...but we'll have to wait and see if I'll even get to make that choice *nervous laugh*
To change the subject...I was just thinking that if you really want to find out more about something someone else has been talking about to other people, you should ask the party directly concerned with it, not the friends she tells it to...if the person concerned didn't tell you when she told others, she probably has her reasons, certain matters are personal after all and shouldn't be made known to too many ppl. Sneaking around
that way when it's none of your business just reflects badly on you...thank goodness she didn't tell u but told u to go ask the person yourself. Didn't mean to preach but that's what I strongly feel. It's a matter of principles.
...if i felt that someone wouldn't mind improving on her character I'd tell her frankly and clearly what was wrong with her, but time and again she makes excuses for those character flaws , saying that she meant to be that way,although this way she behaves puts a lot of ppl off...she doesn't seem to see the need to improve on them...it makes me think that since this person doesn't really care, there's no pint in telling her that yet again knowing that she'll argue that she meant to be that way and that she doesn't care if other ppl like her, yet again. I understand that not everyone strives to be that kind of person whom everyone likes, and I don't condone
changing one's entire personality just so that ppl will like her more, but when certain parts of your character put a lot of ppl off, way too much...she's generally okay, but...there are a lot of things about her I can't stand, especiallyover a long period of time.
I like frineds who are happier, more optimistic, brighter...more normal...but she's still my friend after all...