I wanna do my best this year!!!
Kz, I'm getting all hyped up and (over)enthu again, just hope this will last till the end of the year!!
I'm enthu abt everything that's happening (yup, even 5 tests a week)...
except swimming...
somehow I don't really have the urge to swim competitively any more...
lost my drive...
just want a break...
is this burnout?
but gotta strive on, though I keep thinking, "The swim team needs goos swimmers...not people like YOU"
What am I doing in the swim team anyway? I'm not saying that joining was a big mistake...but right now I just want to study more. I'm tired...I've pretty much resigned myself to the fact that I haven't been swimming competitively since I was young like the other swimmers. I started only in Sec 1. It's kinda hard to keep up, no matter how hard you train...
Watched Lynette make her speech today...felt kinda small and useless
In the swim team there are ppl like her, who train really hard and do the school and country proud
And then there are ppl like ME who shouldn't have been on the team in the 1st place
2 years ago, I powered myself to train really hard...I wanted to do my best
Where did that drive and will to succeed go? Or maybe it's because I know now that it'd be practically impossible for me to catch up
Eng Hui's fly has really improved, and now I trail behind her...
I have only my backstroke left.
Was watching synchro swimmers practise last week... more like my type--to the rhythm, to music...no hurry...like dancing
I love to dance, but for now i don't dare to dance in front of anyone frm sch any more...not alone...can't forget last year.
If I was really "the best dancer I've ever seen" as ade Yeo said, why did they still laugh?
I keep saying I'm not cut out for dancing but the truth is I don't really feel that way. Dancers need practice, and not everyone can get dance steps correct the first time.
Yes, I actually like doing the family dance
Don't laugh now *hides face* Oh, what's there to be ashamed about? I LOVE DOING THE FAMILY DANCE!!! Like dancing...the feel of my body moving...
I probably sound like a bitch too here but today, I think somebody went way too far...she's becoming the very kind of person she said she disliked...I'm probably guilty of some of the very same faults she's committed, but really...she actually thinks it's cool to behave that way!!! Tried hard not to get distracted by her, and somehow succeeded, though she was REALLY VERY ANNOYING AND DISTRACTING. I think even Ade Yeo thought the same, saw this irritated look cross her face for a while.
*She*, the aforementioned...I really can't stand it...had to restrain myself frm muttering the word which rhymes with witch in front of her. Gwen told me to just block her voice on and concentrate on Mrs Tan's voice. I'm proud I more or less managed to do so, but I think my patience is reaching its limits.
She said she hated sarcastic people; she's turning into an extremely sarcastic person. I don't see the humour in what she says.
I Will Try My Best Not To Make The Very Same Mistakes *She* Makes. I will try my best not to distract the ppl around me during lesson time, especially if they want to pay attention. I will not talk about my friends behind their backs. I will not be an 'affectioned ass', or be pretentious. I get the feeling *she* thinks it's cool to do so...that it'd make her more popular, but really I think she is just fine being the way she really is...or can that be the real her?
The friends who know and love you for who you really are are your true friends, not the ones whom you have to put some fake front and act as someone you're not to gain their acceptance and like. That's what I strongly believe. I really dislike ppl who act as someone they're not. Of course, there are certain ways to behave in public, and we must respect other people as well...but I feel that as much as possible we shouldn't be hypocritical.If it isn't what you strongly feel, and it wouldn't hurt someone if you voiced your thoughts, go ahead. If it'd hurt someone to tell the truth, there are other ways to answer other than a lie which goes against what you belief. You can make a general comment, or not answer...don't go overboard with praise...
Of course white lies shouldn't hurt...but sometimes they can hurt even more than the truth when the person lied to finds out the truth...
But of course, it's a complicated matter...I wouldn't advise anyone to be too frank with someone unless she/he was a really close friend or relative, and you know she wouldn't take it to heart and hold a grudge...wouldn't feel insulted...
I try to be honest...but it *is* hard sometimes to do that and not hurt anyone's feelings.