Yijing's going to Japan to study for 2 years!! You lucky gal!!! *strangles* I'd give anything to be in your place!! The American School right? I was just curious if any of the members of the Iro forum who are in Japan are in the American school...

2 certain 2 ppl...one in particular...were bitching like hell during Maths lesson today. I mean, it's your freedom to like and hate whatever kind of music you choose to, but that doesn't mean u diss other ppl's favourite kind of music. I don't exactly like Britney Spears or certain other artistes either but that doesn't give me the right to bitch about them and say they suck and call them names...even if they realy do suck. I think it's just plain rude. Sure, there's free speech and everything, but with that comes responsibility. I'm really sick and fed up of their bitching. *Someone* is never happy with whatever music is played during A Maths. Every lesson, without fail, she'll pass snide remarks and comments on them.

It's okay to say a certain kind of music isn't ur type, or that you don't really like a singer, because it's your freedom of opinion. But when you make a personal attack on the singer, or putting her down...It's way too much

I told her that if she didn't like the music played during class, she could bring her own CD the next time...guess what she replied? "No.I don't want to torture the class.". It was definitely a personal attack!!it's obviously so cuz just a few days before I was joking about 'torturing' the whole class by making them listen to Jpop which many ppl in class don't really like. Her tone told me she wasn't joking. I was really, really hurt and upset but I didn't show it, just packed up and left calmly, although I really wanted to give her a piece of my mind. I really wanted to share my favourite songs with the class then, and I thought it'd be something different from all the songs usually played during lessons...perhaps I'd make a few new Jpop/Arashi fans out of my classmates. It was sorta tit-for-tat though--maybe it's kinda bad of me to do so, but I thought that as I'd been sitting through my classmates' favourite songs, many of which weren't exactly my type, a few of my favourite kind of songs wouldn't hurt...

She's really gone WAY too far. If she gets on my nerves again I'll gather my guts and tell her just what I think.   ¶ 6:38:00 午後

  First things first
Omedetou tanjoubi Sho-kun!!!!!!!!!
he's 22 today...reminds me of the 6 year difference between us...:P
His birthday takes place during his exam period so he'll probably be studying through his birthday...:( But it's the last time he'll have to do so as he graduates in March!! Ganbatte, Sho-kun, all the best for your exams and for the years ahead :D
I sent him a birthday card...wrote *both* birthday and Chinese New year greetings in it LOL...after all his birthday falls on the 4th day of Lunar New year, isn't it a double blessing? Told him so in the card :D I think he'll understand the kanji, I did try to write in the form they use in Japanese, sometimes it's simplified characters but mostly it's traditional characters.

Met Kenneth and the rest that side of the family again...it's been nearly a year. Really nice to see them again...but I just feel that ken and I have grown apart...we don't have that much in common any more...I just feel kinda sad. Today we were talking about music...he likes rock and rock bands...I like rock and heavy metal too...anything with a strong beat...but it's Japanese music I listen too. English music doesn't really appeal to me any more. Let him listen to some Arashi songs I thought he's like...he liked Kotoba Yori taisetsu na Mono and Pika*nchi, 2 of my favourite songs--they're rock and heavy metal-ish respectively...but he didn't like All or Nothing, said it was noise in the background...felt kinda sad abt that cuz I thought he, of all ppl, would like it and he said it was noise...it seems that he didn't like the ballads...

I think he would like Tokio...it Is a basic rock band :D Just keep him away from Love You Only, their very first single, cuz it's more pop than rock.:D Hmz...Actually Arashi could become a rock band if they wanted to...just need someone on drums...Nino can write their songs and play guitar, Sho on keyboard...hold on, who's gonna play bass??? ok...a really weird rock band with a saxophonist and no base and...can Jun learn drums? LOL...kz, maybeJun or Ohno learn bass and drums, and Aiba can be the lead singer since his voice is better for rock than Ohno's...hey, Sho can be the DJ too...I know he can do it, he's got 2 turntables at home!!

I wonder if the class will give me another chance and let me play just one more Jpop song for them...just one more? Please???? Pretty please with cherries on top? And rainbow sprinklers and...*kz, know I sound childish but...* stares at 4 Loyalty with starry eyes. 4 L rolls their eyes... Please? I promise I won't force any more Jpop on you if you don't like this one...

A class in America liked this...my cousin didn't...but I figured that if an American class 9and the American fans on the iro board) liked this, my pretty much Americanized class would...

"Johnny's daihyou/Arashi's in da house yo/So kore kara All or Nothing/That's right yo/S.H.O.W spilling words on this track/ Keep it on like dis/yeah, check it out..."

Yup!! All Or Nothing version 1.02...I'm taking a gamble here, the title's really apt, it's all or nothing. The class either loves this song (and hopefully turn into Arashi freaks when they hear the others) or hates it...and I'm really crossing my fingers that they love it!!

Though some ppl criticised Paretto really badly... "still got people sing this kind of song one ah?" "change the cd!" "the singing is horrible" etc etc :P Guess paretto wasn't a very good choice. I swear, I meant to play All Or Nothing as well, but somehow the com didn't play it...felt so disappointed...the projector was on and ppl were copying frm it, so I didn't dare to go up and doubleclick on All or Nothing :P so...

One last chance, please???? *In my dreams, 4L nods.*

Back to cousins...it's a sense of nostalgia...I hate being so distant from Ken, wish we were just as we were when we were little...Power Rangers, badminton, playground...all the crazy stuff...he deems Harry Potter RPG 'childish' (not that I play it, but I don't find it childish) ...he plays games. I don't. We're interested in different stuff...but I guess we just have to move on...

It's strange, but on the contrary, Edwin and I seem to have grown closer over the years, instead of further apart. We didn't play our musical instruments together for as long as we did in the previous years, but still managed a few songs on the organ together...until my older cousin's brat of a son Jeremy (shush, don't tell anyone I called him that) whined that he couldn't hear the TV cuz the organ was too noisy :P the adults didn't complain!! But children will be children...though even my parents whisper that jeremy's rather selfish, that his parents should have disciplined him a little more and not coddled him that much. Children nowadays are so spoilt. Including me, I guess...Jeremy's 6 or 7, and the last time we met, on grandma's birthday, he held on to all the car posters an uncle brought and didn't let anyone else even touch them!! Nobody can touch what's his...would tolerate it if he were a toddler, but I feel that at 6 or 7 he should know better :P

Anyway, when we weren't playing the organ (no harmonica/recorder this year :P) I was helping him try to translate a song into Japanese...shoulda brought my own dictionary cuz his was missing a LOT of words and we had to search for synonyms. We went swimming too, and played scrabble. Guess who won? Neither of us, but dear beloved walking dictionary of a guy Elvin :D Teased Elvin about catherine again, and he said she was working in New York right now and (guess wat guess wat!!!) might be coming to Singapore in February or March.

Edward somehow kept saying his brother (Edwin) was gay/a sissy/a girl...either that or teasing Edwin and i abt being a couple :P Hello? We're blood cousins!!And about the gay/sissy part...well, I *have* a real sissy for a friend so I should know how to tell one, and believe me, Edwin is no sissy. Edward kinda contradicted himself too, when he later added that his brother was a ladies' man. :P

Can't believe my little cousins on *deep breath* my father's brother's wife's mother's side are all so big now!! Rachel is in P6 this yr already. Aasked her which secondary school, kenneth said, "go to my school--Anglican High!!" I told her, "No, aim higher--Dunman High...no no, even higher, RGS!" Would have told her St Nicks except that it;s rather far away for her.

Kz, New yr 2nd day was with my Mum's side...so sad, Serene and Joyce went to Malaysia to visit their mum's side :( It isn't as fun without them, cuz my youngest aunt's daughters...kinda not nice to talk with, didn't know what to talk abt to the 2 oldest girls grace and Lynn, Ann who's a year younger than me didn't seem very interested in chatting with me :P cuz most of the time they were all engrossed with watching the adults play mahjong. only cute little Dawn :D last year she was a really round little ball, so much that everyone was worried abt her health and told Youngest Aunt not to let her eat so much, and on top of that she was as bratty as Jeremy...ppl had to do what she wanted...but she's so much more loveable this yr :D after a while she became really attached to me, often tapping me on the shoulder--"what are you doing?" :D she's 6...and she's lost quite a lot of baby fat so she isn't as terribly chubby now.

And Jialin/Debbie, my 21 or 22 yr old cousin (Oldest uncle's daughter) is really pretty!! *sighz*...looks a lot like Uehara Takako/ Apple Hong. Heard she's modelling part time.Jialin also said that she was also running a small backpackers' lodge just on the outskirts of Little India with her boyfriend. She seems really close to Grace, planning to study in Australia just like Grace is, so she'll be flying over soon to look for an apartment. Youngest aunt and Grace are helping her...Lynn is going over there to study too. Youngest Aunt initially asked Jialin to move into Grace's apartment , but Jialin was going with around 4 friends so Grace's apartment wouldn't have enough...so yeah.


Youngest Aunt actually suggested to my mum about sending me to Australia right after my 'o' levels...Mum asked me what I thought, but right away I told her no, because It's not what I want.

Firstly, I want to go to JC, think it'll give me the social grounding and leadership training I'd need.

2. I don't think I'd be ready to go overseas to study so soon. After JC perhaps. see above. 17 yrs old is too young to me...

3. I wanna go to the USA, not Australia, to study...just feel I'll like it better in USA. Will work hard for scholarship.


I don't know...I still feel so uncertain about studying overseas...suddenly it's so short a time, 3 more years...what's it like to be all alone with no family there? It'll be a different education system altogether, different ppl...if I know no one there...will I make friends easily? Guess I have to read up a lot about studying in the USA...I thought I knew but all of a sudden I realise there's so much I'm unsure of. How did Elvin-kor manage when he studied there? If only I was as street smart and independent as he is...one reason I admire him. Which university? Gotta do research...preferably one of the Ivy Leagues, if not the best U for journalism. But I wonder, if I wanted to work with, say, CNA ir the Straits Times, would studying overseas be relevant? They probably do things differently there and here...

broadcast journalist...I wanna be a news anchor :) Hopefully, someday when you switch on the TV, you'd see me there reporting the news. Will you recognise me then? I wonder...maybe it's better if you don't, cuz I have a feeling some ppl can't see me, as how I look now, reporting news on tv. Some of u would probably say, "You'll scare all the viewers away". Don't worry. I don't think I'll look the same. I don't think I'm that ugly even now anyway :D

kx, 2.40 am, gtg
Happy Birthday Sho-kun
Happy CNY everyone!!
  ¶ 2:40:00 午前

  I wanna do my best this year!!!
Kz, I'm getting all hyped up and (over)enthu again, just hope this will last till the end of the year!!
I'm enthu abt everything that's happening (yup, even 5 tests a week)...
except swimming...
somehow I don't really have the urge to swim competitively any more...
lost my drive...
just want a break...
is this burnout?
but gotta strive on, though I keep thinking, "The swim team needs goos swimmers...not people like YOU"
What am I doing in the swim team anyway? I'm not saying that joining was a big mistake...but right now I just want to study more. I'm tired...I've pretty much resigned myself to the fact that I haven't been swimming competitively since I was young like the other swimmers. I started only in Sec 1. It's kinda hard to keep up, no matter how hard you train...
Watched Lynette make her speech today...felt kinda small and useless
In the swim team there are ppl like her, who train really hard and do the school and country proud
And then there are ppl like ME who shouldn't have been on the team in the 1st place
2 years ago, I powered myself to train really hard...I wanted to do my best
Where did that drive and will to succeed go? Or maybe it's because I know now that it'd be practically impossible for me to catch up
Eng Hui's fly has really improved, and now I trail behind her...
I have only my backstroke left.

Was watching synchro swimmers practise last week... more like my type--to the rhythm, to music...no hurry...like dancing
I love to dance, but for now i don't dare to dance in front of anyone frm sch any more...not alone...can't forget last year.
If I was really "the best dancer I've ever seen" as ade Yeo said, why did they still laugh?
I keep saying I'm not cut out for dancing but the truth is I don't really feel that way. Dancers need practice, and not everyone can get dance steps correct the first time.
Yes, I actually like doing the family dance
Don't laugh now *hides face* Oh, what's there to be ashamed about? I LOVE DOING THE FAMILY DANCE!!! Like dancing...the feel of my body moving...

I probably sound like a bitch too here but today, I think somebody went way too far...she's becoming the very kind of person she said she disliked...I'm probably guilty of some of the very same faults she's committed, but really...she actually thinks it's cool to behave that way!!! Tried hard not to get distracted by her, and somehow succeeded, though she was REALLY VERY ANNOYING AND DISTRACTING. I think even Ade Yeo thought the same, saw this irritated look cross her face for a while.

*She*, the aforementioned...I really can't stand it...had to restrain myself frm muttering the word which rhymes with witch in front of her. Gwen told me to just block her voice on and concentrate on Mrs Tan's voice. I'm proud I more or less managed to do so, but I think my patience is reaching its limits.

She said she hated sarcastic people; she's turning into an extremely sarcastic person. I don't see the humour in what she says.

I Will Try My Best Not To Make The Very Same Mistakes *She* Makes. I will try my best not to distract the ppl around me during lesson time, especially if they want to pay attention. I will not talk about my friends behind their backs. I will not be an 'affectioned ass', or be pretentious. I get the feeling *she* thinks it's cool to do so...that it'd make her more popular, but really I think she is just fine being the way she really is...or can that be the real her?

The friends who know and love you for who you really are are your true friends, not the ones whom you have to put some fake front and act as someone you're not to gain their acceptance and like. That's what I strongly believe. I really dislike ppl who act as someone they're not. Of course, there are certain ways to behave in public, and we must respect other people as well...but I feel that as much as possible we shouldn't be hypocritical.If it isn't what you strongly feel, and it wouldn't hurt someone if you voiced your thoughts, go ahead. If it'd hurt someone to tell the truth, there are other ways to answer other than a lie which goes against what you belief. You can make a general comment, or not answer...don't go overboard with praise...

Of course white lies shouldn't hurt...but sometimes they can hurt even more than the truth when the person lied to finds out the truth...

But of course, it's a complicated matter...I wouldn't advise anyone to be too frank with someone unless she/he was a really close friend or relative, and you know she wouldn't take it to heart and hold a grudge...wouldn't feel insulted...

I try to be honest...but it *is* hard sometimes to do that and not hurt anyone's feelings.  ¶ 12:06:00 午前

  あけましておめでとう！2004年もがんばってね！今年、どうなってのかな？どうやっても頑張って！2004年は、私にとってす~~~ごく大事な年だよ、‘O'レベルがありますから。頑張ってなきゃ！精一杯で、できるだけで、真剣に頑張ってなきゃならない！うん！負けたら駄目！大事な試験、勝ちなきゃ！  ¶ 2:16:00 午前

  Happy New Year everyone!! Akemasjite Omedetou Gozaimasu!!! 2004 mo ganbatte kudasai!!
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I haven't updated in a long time!! Besides school reopening--I'm divided into 1/2 abt that, kind of excited to get back yet dun want holidays to end...
Mrs Gurung's our form teacher. Dun mind her, but hope Mdm Zhang remains our HCL teacher!! I wonder how this year will turn out...Please let it be good!! I need at most 7 points to get into RJC, but best to aim for 6. I really want to take Japanese for O levels if they let me, but still have my A Maths to worry about...can I juggle both? If I do get into RJC, I wanna go into their Japanese Elective Programme, but u need jap O levels for that...so what if someone who's quite good in the language (not that i am) but didn't take it for O levels wants to apply? Hope they're not that unyielding about the rules...:P

I hope 4 Loyalty gets along better this year! I think we're well on our way, now if only we could get some ppl to come out of their shells...those really quiet ppl who seem to keep to themselves all the time and study, study, study...I'm not against studying so hard, but u have to mix around and have some fun as well. All work and no play makes Jane a dull girl...please lighten up a little?!

I have to improve one grade every month if i want to get an A1 for A Maths by prelims in August...F9 to A1. Can i do it? I think I can, as long as I try really hard. I kinda slacked and didn't try at all last year, not until the very end.

As if I wasn't upset enough about how I did last year (at least I got promoted to Sec 4 without having to switch streams), now my Mum's echoing our dear vice-principal Mrs Cheong: "You, get into RJC with those grades? Forget it." I know I can, I just have to put in more effort!! Luckily, at least my friends and my aunt have faith I can do it [huggles] "Let me see you in your green skirt in 2005". :) I hope I can!! And if--no, when I do, I'll also show up and SHOW those who didn't believe I could I did.

Ganbarimasu!!  ¶ 2:07:00 午前