i came to St nicks not just because of what my cousin said, but because on the reporting day, and during my first few weeks here, people were so nice and really, I thought it was all that gd...I only saw the uglier side later on when I realised that not everyone was as nice as I thought, and kind of woke up from my illusion. I'm posting this reply here because i want to rectify stuff. true, I judged St Nick's girls by my cousin's opinion at first, but it was the behavior of the earlier batches etc that I saw with my own eyes that gave me a certain expectation of the way St Nicks girls should be... But not everyone can conform, right?
I wanna get contact lenses! But mum won't allow it. She and i have this promise though, if I do really well this yr she'll let me get contacts next year, but even then i can only wear them for special occasions, not everyday :P I really think I look better without glasses. Okay, one of my eyes as a double eyelid and the other doesn't, and sometimes it makes one eye look a little bigger than the other, but believe it or not, I actually like them that way.
There was a geisha in Japanese history--Taka, the Literary geisha, who wasn't really pretty but was really talented when it came to poems and other such literary stuff. But the thing customers were most attracted to were her eyes--because she, too, had one single-lidded and one double-lidded eye! "One western eye (the double lidded one) and one Asian eye". It appeals to me most because while I want to learn the western culture, I want to preserve our Asian heritage too...I want to be well versed in eastern as well as Western culture. And the eyes just seem to fit...But if u made me choose which eye i like most, I would say I like my single-eyelid more, strange enough. It's got a nicer shape (LOL)
Ok...you've got to understand that a 'diary', as this blog is, is meant for ppl to share their thoughts, vent their feelings as so. No one can tell a person what and what not to write on their blogs, and u have to take what u read with a pinch of salt. Moods can influence a person's feelings and thus, what she writes...if I'm angry at a person, I may rant and maybe 'bitch' about her (I do try not to bitch...I try to write stuff in a way that the person wouldn't be too upset if she read it...try to) but after that burst of anger is over and I calm down...usually, when i say i really hate a person, it's just for the moment...then I'll get over it. (BTW I still dislike Maki Goto).
Face it, most of the ppl who put their diaries up online like this knowingly or unknowingly have some deep wish inside for others to read their thoughts and feelings. I'm no exception...my deepest secrets whom I don't want anyone to know about are in the hard, handwritten journal I keep at home under lock and key. But I am honest here...I just withhold some stuff i don't want others to know. Everyone has some secret they wouldn't want anyone else to know...
This blog is a media where i can share what i want to with the people who read it, and maybe communicate with them too:)