:P And...it wasn't Jap 'students' but the parents off the Jap students that came down :P I hope the students do come down sometime soon though, wish for a chance to interact with them and everything...(though I still feel a little shy abt practising my Jap speech but still...)
Yup, the bk I red was in Japanese. It was basically about the basic profiles of the Johnny's artistes, places where Johnny's artiste's have been spotted...actually, I felt kind of disgusted at the book, it was telling fans where to hang out to stake out their idols, and even mentioned the area where the stars lived, compared with a map!!!!!!!!! I must add though, it's in conflict with another book which also mentioned the areas where the idols lived(though that book had no maps...) I mean, this book was practically encouraging fans to go and stake out their idols houses or hang around the area hoping to see the idol!!! Isn't that just like encouraging fans to go and intrude on their idols' privacy as well? Sho did say that he didn't like it when fans camp outside his house...and his school...etc etc. C' mon, idols have their own private lives too, if the fans really respected them they'd let them retain their privacy. We can see our idols any time in mags, on TV etc etc... Place yourself in their shoes. Imagine eyes on you watching every thing you do, nearly any where you go...I'd break down in no time...Idols NEED to have their privacy too!!! The books weren't official, so how they found out, I don't know...maybe the writers trailed the stars and found out where they lived. Me, I know Aiba lives in Chiba, Nino lives NEAR Chiba, the rest live somewhere in Tokyo...but the idols never revealed the neighbourhood they lived in, probably as a safety precaution. I'm very upset about the fact that the book actually published that. They didn't publish the exact addresses, but gave very detailed descriptions of the area, road names and so on...
I'm sticking with the episode books. Even though I have to take those episode books with a pinch of salt, it's still much less salt than with that book which included those rumours.Besides, the episode books can mostly be backed up by what the guys themselves said in interviews with magazines, during the MC segments in their concerts, and on TV programmes. There's no way to confirm if what the other books said abt their family backgrounds etc were true.
Sometimes, i can't stand this class...It's ok if many of them hate me ALTHOUGH most of the hardly know me, but leave my friends alone!!! The way they're behaving reminds me of the Communist era (Cultural revolution) and Nazi eras in history...(sorry, but I was just reading 'Wild Swans' and somehow i saw much similarity...) When someone was blacklisted, the people they associated with were also usually ostracised by others as well, although they might not be part of the enemy factions, their only ';crime' being that they associated with people who were suspected of being 'class enemies' etc!!!!
It's unfair and immature!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I feel really bad...maybe that's why Maybelline stopped being as friendly to me. I really feel that she's changed....influenced...
The situation does bear many similarities to the Cultural revolution...:P the way ppl behave...how they're so influenced by propaganda...it's sickening. I'm wondering if they really can get influenced that easily. People whom I'm just mere acquaintances with suddenly start avoiding me...I don't understand!!! I've hardly said anything to these people other than the occasional "Hi" "Bye" or "good luck" and there they are....:P:P:P Gwen, I'm really glad that you seemed to keep your own mind through all these, and don't seem as easily influenced by what people say. What are as shallow as to judge a person even when they hardly know her? It's always innocent before proven guilty, and people can hardly avoid being biased when it comes to passing comments. An enemy will hardly mention the good points of the person she dislikes, only her shortcomings, for when we hate a person we're blind to all but the person's worst points. Friends may also be blind to a person's weaknesses...
They say that a friend would usually not tell a person about her shortcomings for fear that she'll hurt the person, but I think a true friend would do that if her friend really had serious flaws...only she'd put it across in a nice way, instead of saying harsh remarks and calling names. True friends would not have to worry about offending each other!!! I'd be very hurt if someone pretended there was nothing wrong with me in front of me, but went around talking bad about me behind my back.
That's not what i expect of St Nicks girls!!! I chose this school because my cousin told me how much he admired the girls from this school for their friendliness, maturity etc etc. But is judging a person based on others' opinions mature? NO. I'm pretty upset by this class.
I've learnt how deceitful ppl can be, and not to judge books by their covers. People who are nice in front of u harbour ill will and spite in their hearts, I don't even know who's good hearted and who's heart is black any more. I feel that I can't trust as much...why can't they be braver and stand up for their own beliefs? Must they go with the flow every time? Why let ppl influence u and control your thoughts? We can question things, don't you know? You don't have to believe everything! I feel that I have to watch what I say again, that i can't really be myself...all because of what ppl will think. Some ppl manage to twist everything I say and do against me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (maybe it's good practice for argumentative essay writing, I have to keep phrasing stuff so that it's difficult to rebute...)
I wonder what's wrong with ppl nowadays...of course they are those who are really nice and goodhearted, but somehow I don't have as much faith in people as I used too. I've seen the ugly sides of ppl too often. I guess that's why I'm withdrawing myself into my own world again...Beginning of the year, or even when I just started secondary school, I was so full of hopes and dreams. I came out of my shell, and tried to be friendly with people, and participate actively and everything. But now I hardly dare too any more. When I try to, ppl talk behind my back etc, speaking about me being show off and stuff...or saying I'm weird, because after a while I finally gather the courage to go up to them and TRY to strike up a conversation...and they think I have something up my sleeve I guess. It's hard trying to be plain friendly any more. At least for me. And now I have to worry about my own friends being prejudiced by mere association.
It's making me self conscious and less confident. When I want to voice my opinion in class, I don't really dare to. When the monitors/prefect ask what we think of the class etc, there's so much I want to say and voice out...but I don't dare to do so in front of the whole class, because there will be people who don't make any comment about what I say in class, but go around criticising it--and me--to their friends in other classes. But what I say is what I feel is the truth...
Maybe the reactions of other ppl is why Singaporeans in genral don't dare to speak up.
What happened to free speech? Do we have to practise self-censorship in such a prudish, rigid way? Why can't some ppl accept that others have different opinions from them? They automatically assume that their wway of thought is what the majority agrees with. And so they dislike those who show any disagreement.
...Rant over...
Posted my letter to Sho on Monday...I really hope he replies! Wonder if it'll be one of those copy letters instead of a personal one...
~I hope he realises I'm just teasing him when I told him I've been seeing squirrels around quite often lately (which is true), and seeing the squirrels somehow makes me think of him!! He only grudgingly admits that many people say he looks like a squirrel/chipmunk (the Jap name for squirrel, 'risu' also means chipmunk)! The other members of Arashi all agree he looks like one too...They also voted unanimously for Sho as the most "H' in the grp...