Friendships never last 4ever, do they? I really feel that there has to be something seriously wrong with me...why do I irritate ppl so easily?
It's not going to last so long, as usual...blow, why can't I keep the friends i make in this school? In fact, it's the friends whom I made in pr sch that lasted...
Alisia, Zhehao, Lim Xian, nicholas, Patrisia...I wish I didn't lose contact with Chun Shu...:) Wen Jie too. I wish we could all meet again, be in the same class/school again...I wish everything was just like it was in P6. I can't stand the class politics...
Maybe I'm just being oversensitive but why do I feel that the friends I have in this school are beginning to ignore me too? Did I do something really despicable unknowingly?
There's something wrong...I just don't know how to interact with ppl...
I can't wait to get outof this school...must study really hard and get into a gd JC. preferably, certain ppl frm this school won't follow me to the JC I go into...
1 more year...just 1 more yr...one more year to endure...probably by the end I won't have any friends. Again. I feel so lost...I know that u can't let friends take over ur life, but they still are impt...
Feeling the urge to write a long letter to Alisia and Chun Shu...haven't written to them in more than a yr...at 1st we wrote to each other regularly, but as we got busier, we didn't write as often...
Is this what being in a good school is like? Somehow I feel that a lot of ppl have lost their humanity...maybe I'm a neighbourhood sch girl at heart...it seems that ppl in neighbourhood schools are so much more real...so much more human...
yeah, I miss the guys...the way we'd trade punches (ok, I was beating them up lol), the jokes...
It's no use looking back. Those days will never return. Just when i thought of opening myself up again...won't ppl find it weird? My way of being friendly is probably weird to them. I keep saying the wrong things. i irritate the hell out of even my gd friends...
Can't let this distract me. Got to do well in this. Got to do well in 'O' levels. Got to get into my dream JC. Hopefully I'll meet my gd pri sch friends there again.
I get the feeling
she's avoiding me, ignoring me...
I'm such a bore. Why can't i ever talk interestingly? I try cracking jokes but they come out sounding so lame.
Ppl change, don't they? Someon'e changed so much...there's still a bit of the old her left, but there's so little left. She's no longer the sweet girl I used to know...
Why can't I stop looking back at the past, and look ahead instead?
I know I'm probably being naive, but I still trust the ppl in this class. I don't hate them, though I was very upset by their behavior...I still believe some of them still have good hearts, no matter how terribly they treat me. They just think it's cool to follow what the popular ppl are doing...or maybe they really believe it... I don't know, I feel so numb...
How do you stop being irritating when u don't know what's making u irritating?
To watch any one else and follow what she does is copying...I want to be me...but is this the real me? This boring, irritating girl...
Finally got that A2 for A Maths...so glad I even passed...:)
Just in a very nostalgic, melancholy mood today...
Got my Myojo, Wink Up and Duet...looking forward to nxt issue's duet!! It's gonna have Arashi on the cover again, don't beat me to it!!!
See how fast my mood swings? Even when I'm upset the longest i take to get over it is a day...it's when I feel hopeful again, hopeful that things will somehow right themselves, or that I'll come up with some way to put things right...
Lately I've had this urge to try to put things right. It's like that time when I accidentally broke 2 of Chingyi's testtubes...She'd said it was ok, but I felt really guilty, should have been more careful...the only solution I could come up with was to replace the 2 tubes I broke with 2 of my own. :) And it made me feel much better, it was my fault and I should be the one who rights it.