I'm worried...experts have predicted a big earthquake in Tokyo anytime now...I hope it doesn't happen...but even if it didn't I'd be worrying about an earthquake when I go in November!!! I wish we had earthquake drills here or something!! Weird, mostly I was worried abt Sho...serious earthquakes can kill, enough said...I learnt abt the prediction at arnd 5pm and went to sleep, worried...woke up at arnd 7pm with a splitting headache, mostly cuz i was thinking so much abt the earthquake and of Sho and my idols etc ...a bit idiotic right? I should be thinking about stuff more serious than that, but here I am, worrying about my idols...(Sho in particular...)

Yup Jr Rox, Sho does understand English!!! From what I heard, he's the best in English in the whole of Arashi!!! But anyway, I wrote the letter in Japanese with a smattering of English...If u want to write a letter to anyone else though, i think they'd understand English too, just keep the language simple and don't use bombastic words or anything...

*if u want to write to a member in Arashi other than Sho, maybe Sho will help them understand the letter?* Sho uses words like 'subliminal'!!! He used that in his interview in October Duet!!!!!!

By the way, the first pika*nchi (Pika*nchi~Life is hard DAKEDO Happy~) was filmed last year, 2002, and released in Japan in September/October last year!!! It's the 2nd instalment, titled Pika**nchi Life is Hard DAKARA Happy that will start filming in October...I wanna see that, and the first Pika*nchi too! The first Pika*nchi has 1 asterisk before the 'n', the title of the sequel has two, and yes, they did use clips from the filming of Pika*nchi in the PV for the song 'Pika*nchi'... the part I remember best--that shot where all 5 of them were at a pier or something and started unzipping their pants... (H alert H alert!!!)I like that video cuz it's the only place where I can actually get a hint of what goes on in the movie...besides all the movie summaries and everything.


*did u click the 'post' button twice when posting in the guestbk? Just click once and wait...*

Gwen...I'm not mad at u, really, I understand ...go read what I wrote in ur guestbk. Cheerup!

Sigh, better study for exams though I'm not in the mood...everyone doesn't seem to be in the mood...we're so jaded by all the studying we just don't have the enthusiasm to study any more  ¶ 10:00:00 午後

  Friendships never last 4ever, do they? I really feel that there has to be something seriously wrong with me...why do I irritate ppl so easily?

It's not going to last so long, as usual...blow, why can't I keep the friends i make in this school? In fact, it's the friends whom I made in pr sch that lasted...

Alisia, Zhehao, Lim Xian, nicholas, Patrisia...I wish I didn't lose contact with Chun Shu...:) Wen Jie too. I wish we could all meet again, be in the same class/school again...I wish everything was just like it was in P6. I can't stand the class politics...

Maybe I'm just being oversensitive but why do I feel that the friends I have in this school are beginning to ignore me too? Did I do something really despicable unknowingly?

There's something wrong...I just don't know how to interact with ppl...

I can't wait to get outof this school...must study really hard and get into a gd JC. preferably, certain ppl frm this school won't follow me to the JC I go into...

1 more year...just 1 more yr...one more year to endure...probably by the end I won't have any friends. Again. I feel so lost...I know that u can't let friends take over ur life, but they still are impt...

Feeling the urge to write a long letter to Alisia and Chun Shu...haven't written to them in more than a yr...at 1st we wrote to each other regularly, but as we got busier, we didn't write as often...

Is this what being in a good school is like? Somehow I feel that a lot of ppl have lost their humanity...maybe I'm a neighbourhood sch girl at heart...it seems that ppl in neighbourhood schools are so much more real...so much more human...

yeah, I miss the guys...the way we'd trade punches (ok, I was beating them up lol), the jokes...

It's no use looking back. Those days will never return. Just when i thought of opening myself up again...won't ppl find it weird? My way of being friendly is probably weird to them. I keep saying the wrong things. i irritate the hell out of even my gd friends...

Can't let this distract me. Got to do well in this. Got to do well in 'O' levels. Got to get into my dream JC. Hopefully I'll meet my gd pri sch friends there again.

I get the feeling she's avoiding me, ignoring me...

I'm such a bore. Why can't i ever talk interestingly? I try cracking jokes but they come out sounding so lame.

Ppl change, don't they? Someon'e changed so much...there's still a bit of the old her left, but there's so little left. She's no longer the sweet girl I used to know...

Why can't I stop looking back at the past, and look ahead instead?

I know I'm probably being naive, but I still trust the ppl in this class. I don't hate them, though I was very upset by their behavior...I still believe some of them still have good hearts, no matter how terribly they treat me. They just think it's cool to follow what the popular ppl are doing...or maybe they really believe it... I don't know, I feel so numb...

How do you stop being irritating when u don't know what's making u irritating?
To watch any one else and follow what she does is copying...I want to be me...but is this the real me? This boring, irritating girl...

Finally got that A2 for A Maths...so glad I even passed...:)

Just in a very nostalgic, melancholy mood today...

Got my Myojo, Wink Up and Duet...looking forward to nxt issue's duet!! It's gonna have Arashi on the cover again, don't beat me to it!!!

See how fast my mood swings? Even when I'm upset the longest i take to get over it is a day...it's when I feel hopeful again, hopeful that things will somehow right themselves, or that I'll come up with some way to put things right...

Lately I've had this urge to try to put things right. It's like that time when I accidentally broke 2 of Chingyi's testtubes...She'd said it was ok, but I felt really guilty, should have been more careful...the only solution I could come up with was to replace the 2 tubes I broke with 2 of my own. :) And it made me feel much better, it was my fault and I should be the one who rights it.  ¶ 9:19:00 午後

  Hi!
To Jr Rox: I'm more of an Arashi fan than a Jr fan, and I don't know if Stand Up! will even be released here...it does contain certain themes after all (LOL) if it were shown on TV here I think it'd be on Thursday 11.30pm timeslot...but we'd probably have to wait a year or more if they intend to show it :P

I know a shop in the basement of Liang Court that rents VHS of j-doramas!!! I don't know if they have subtitles though, I don't have a VHS or DVD player currently :P And I saw Netsuretsu Teki Chuukahanten there...

Import online...sounds like a gd idea but my parents would never let me :( I really really wish they'd bring the dramas back in, in DVD or VHS format if not in VCD! They don't release dramas on VCD in Jpan, but on VHS and DVD...I heard that Sim Lim Square has Jdrama vcds if u know where to look, but I haven't checked that out...they're also sold in Malaysia but I just don't have the time to go :( So many dramas I wanna watch...Stand Up!, Kisarazu Cats Eye, V no Arashi, Yoiko no Mikata, Kimi wa Pet, Gokusen...sigh...Don't forget Pika*nchi!!! Will they ever show that movie on free-to-air tv? I really hope so...

NEWS will release their debut single on 7 November in 7-11 stores (at least in Japan). There will be 2 versions--East Version and West version, and their sleeve designs and coupling songs will be different. From what I know, YamaP will be the leader of the group, but otherwise it is a 'rotation; membership, meaning that out of the 9 of them, 1 or 2 will take turns to go back to the subgrp (or something like that) while the 6,7 or 8 others will remain active. Strange, but if there were 9 active members all the time, the group would be too big, I don't want it to end up like Morning Musume

I don't know if u read Jap but here's the official site for NEWS:
http://main.sej.co.jp/03/2003_0918/index2.html. It's in Jap though...

Yup, I'm frm St Nicks'...which Cheryl do u mean? There are 2 Cheryls in my class, one or two others in the level and probably a whole lot more in the whole sec. section...

Super Idol Aiba!! I think he's cute, but my favourite Arashi member is Sakurai Sho(Sho only!!!) Have u ever tried writing a fan letter to them? :) By the way, Miyake Ken is Sho's respected senior in Johnny's...he's my fave V6 member but I'm not that into V6...

We've never seen YamaP on SG tv b4...I guess that's 1 reason why there aren't that many Jr fans in SG (though now that NEWS has debuted I don't think YamaP and the others can exactly be considered 'Jr's any more). Ppl here would know SMAP, V6, Kinki Kids and maybe Arashi and Tokio, but many don't know about Johnny's, neither do they know abt the Jrs...:( They need some more promotion here...it's hard to find someone who actually knows abt Johnny's and the jrs and everything...:D

The only (ex-) Jr most ppl here know is Takizawa Hideaki and many of his fans don't even know he was a Jr!!!

  ¶ 8:25:00 午後

  Te Agero
Lyrics: Youji Kubota
Music: Patrick LIOTARD
Arrange: CHOKKAKU
Rap Lyrics: Sho Sakurai (!!!)

This is la tormento steelo!
ya know my steelo
Do that shit! Do that shit!
Hit it

Namae mo shirazu
Tagai wo shirou ka?
We don't even know each other's names
Why don't we get to know each other?

Yoru no taiyou wa burakku raito
Namioto wa raten no rizumu
The night sun a black light
The sound of the waves, a Latin rhythm

Senya ichi ya no
Mid Tokyo All Night
Mid Tokyo All Night --A thousand nights in one

Moshimo ashita machi de surechattemo
Kidzukanai kurai sekushi ni Oh
Even if we rubbed against each other on the streets tomorrow
It would be so sexy that we wouldn't be aware of it Oh

High High High Te agero
High High High Te agero
Kuchidzukemo kawasanu mama
Koshitsuki wa saikouchou ni Oh
High High High Lift your hand!
High High High Lift your hand!
While we haven't exchanged kisses
Our postures are at the climax Oh

High High High hai na pa-ti
High High High ude ageyou
Doko de oboeta sono tekunikku
Nikurashii hodo sasou
High High High A high party
High High High Let's raise our arms
Where did you learn this technique?
It's so alluring it's hateful

Hito ikire Dance Time
Nettai no muudo
A Dance Time which makes people alive
A heated mood

Hadaka no mama umaretekita
Kemono tachi no hatsujouki
[It's ]The mating season of beasts
That's born while [we're] naked

Togirenai myujikku
Nami utsu mune
Uninterrupted music
Waves hitting the chest

Fuku wo kita mama shawa wo abita
Hodo ni nureta sukeru bodirain Oh
While getting dressed you took a shower
A bodyline soaked through to the limit Oh

High High High Te Agero
High High High nigerenaize
Iki saki mo tsugenu mama ni
Itte shimau you na manazashi Oh
High High High lift your hands
High High High You can't escape!
While you didn't even tell me your destination,
[You gave me] a look that seemed to say you were already gone Oh

High High High motto hai ni
High High High ude ageyou
Doko de oboeta sono tekunikku
Yudan surya o te agesa
High High High higher
High High High Lift your arms
Where did you learn that technique
If you池e off your guard Lift your hands

Orera dammattetemo anata damattetemo
I say loud!?
Damattetemo koe agechau n da
Even if we keep quiet Even if you keep quiet
I say loud!?
Even if it's quiet the voices will still get louder

Sexy!? munamoto ni sasaru kiba
Sexy!? Mina CHEEVA CHEEVA
Sexy!? U like the god of shiva
Te agero tte sexy se?orita!
Sexy!? Fangs pierced into the chest
Sexy!? Everyone CHEEVA CHEEVA**
Sexy!? You're like the god of Shiva
I'd say lift your hands sexy senorita!

Moshimo ashita machi de surechigattemo
Kidzukanai kurai sekushi ni Oh~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Even if we passed each other in the streets tomorrow
It would be so sexy that we wouldn't be aware of it Oh!~~~~~~~~~~~~

High High High te agero
High High High ryoute agero
Kuchidzuke mo kawasanu mama
Koshitsuki wa saikouchou ni Oh
High High High Lift your hands
High High High Lift both your hands
While we still haven't exchanged kisses
Our postures are at the climax Oh!

High High High te agero
High High High nigerenai ze
Ikisaki mo tsugenu mama ni
Itte shimau na manazashi
High High High lift your hands
High High High You can't escape!
While you didn't even tell me your destination,
[You gave me] a look that seemed to say you were already gone Oh

High High High Hai na Paatii
High High High Ude ageyou
Doko de oboeta sono tekunikku
Nikurashii hodo sasou
High High High A high party
High High High Let's lift our arms
Where did you learn that technique?
It's so alluring, it's hateful

High High  ¶ 11:19:00 午後

  Feeling so guilty...so damn guilty...it's my fault...but how would she feel if I cut ties with her? Somehow I feel that it's the only way to solve the problem--that I stop being friends with her, though it hurts to even think of it...but at least they won't look at her that way...

Like during the cultural revolution...when sometimes the only way the protect family and friends was to deny and cut off any ties with them...

What's wrong with me? Is there something seriously worng even I am not sure of? Or was it because of those ppl from last year who are spreading stuff behind my back? Soomehow, I feel they have something to to do it all. It isn't just HER. Recently, I found out that someone frm @ Hope 2002 who had been relatively nice to me actually disliked me. Again, I hardly knew her. Again, she was never a close friend...i admit, I was a bitch last year but...aren't those ppl being just as bitchy?

You know I don't really like the word 'bitch' but somehow this is the only word I can think of to describe them...

I'm not angry...just upset...very upset. I wish I could put things right...why can't they just leave me alone???? I don't think I've done anything this year to make my classmates this year really hate me...have I? I tried to be nice, I tried to see things their way...

Why are ppl so narrow-minded?

Somehow, right now, I think the best way to put things right is just...to die...to vanish off the face of eart. Maybe they'll regret it, maybe they won't, but if there was no me, nothing like that would happen in the first place. Yuanping and Gwen would still be friends...and Gwen wouldn't be ostracised by them...maybe the class would be much more united...I really think I'm a jinx...I just want to die...right now...

No one will understand, will they? Will the teachers who claim to be our listening ears if we have any problems even here me out? Thye can't tell everyone to stop...no one can tell my classmates to try to get to know me better before they judge...

I just feel that everything's my fault.....................

I'm wondering if I said something wrong. I wrote earlier on that I wrote a letter in Jap to Wenhan last week (just because I was itching to write a Jap letter to someone about the new grp NEWS and Wenhan was the only one I knew who understood Jap and knew about Johnny's)...on Friday she asked me if it was OK if she didn't reply in Jap. I told her it was okay, but I added that she didn't have to reply if she didn't want to...after all I didn't want to compel her to reply although I did wish for one...I'm afraid I might have given her the impression I didn't want her to reply...I do, but it's just that if she doesn't want to it's ok...

Longing for Wink Up and Duet...

OH, I forgot! Myojo's out today!!!Dropping by Bugis tml


  ¶ 10:20:00 午後

  :P And...it wasn't Jap 'students' but the parents off the Jap students that came down :P I hope the students do come down sometime soon though, wish for a chance to interact with them and everything...(though I still feel a little shy abt practising my Jap speech but still...)

Yup, the bk I red was in Japanese. It was basically about the basic profiles of the Johnny's artistes, places where Johnny's artiste's have been spotted...actually, I felt kind of disgusted at the book, it was telling fans where to hang out to stake out their idols, and even mentioned the area where the stars lived, compared with a map!!!!!!!!! I must add though, it's in conflict with another book which also mentioned the areas where the idols lived(though that book had no maps...) I mean, this book was practically encouraging fans to go and stake out their idols houses or hang around the area hoping to see the idol!!! Isn't that just like encouraging fans to go and intrude on their idols' privacy as well? Sho did say that he didn't like it when fans camp outside his house...and his school...etc etc. C' mon, idols have their own private lives too, if the fans really respected them they'd let them retain their privacy. We can see our idols any time in mags, on TV etc etc... Place yourself in their shoes. Imagine eyes on you watching every thing you do, nearly any where you go...I'd break down in no time...Idols NEED to have their privacy too!!! The books weren't official, so how they found out, I don't know...maybe the writers trailed the stars and found out where they lived. Me, I know Aiba lives in Chiba, Nino lives NEAR Chiba, the rest live somewhere in Tokyo...but the idols never revealed the neighbourhood they lived in, probably as a safety precaution. I'm very upset about the fact that the book actually published that. They didn't publish the exact addresses, but gave very detailed descriptions of the area, road names and so on...

I'm sticking with the episode books. Even though I have to take those episode books with a pinch of salt, it's still much less salt than with that book which included those rumours.Besides, the episode books can mostly be backed up by what the guys themselves said in interviews with magazines, during the MC segments in their concerts, and on TV programmes. There's no way to confirm if what the other books said abt their family backgrounds etc were true.

Sometimes, i can't stand this class...It's ok if many of them hate me ALTHOUGH most of the hardly know me, but leave my friends alone!!! The way they're behaving reminds me of the Communist era (Cultural revolution) and Nazi eras in history...(sorry, but I was just reading 'Wild Swans' and somehow i saw much similarity...) When someone was blacklisted, the people they associated with were also usually ostracised by others as well, although they might not be part of the enemy factions, their only ';crime' being that they associated with people who were suspected of being 'class enemies' etc!!!!

It's unfair and immature!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I feel really bad...maybe that's why Maybelline stopped being as friendly to me. I really feel that she's changed....influenced...

The situation does bear many similarities to the Cultural revolution...:P the way ppl behave...how they're so influenced by propaganda...it's sickening. I'm wondering if they really can get influenced that easily. People whom I'm just mere acquaintances with suddenly start avoiding me...I don't understand!!! I've hardly said anything to these people other than the occasional "Hi" "Bye" or "good luck" and there they are....:P:P:P Gwen, I'm really glad that you seemed to keep your own mind through all these, and don't seem as easily influenced by what people say. What are as shallow as to judge a person even when they hardly know her? It's always innocent before proven guilty, and people can hardly avoid being biased when it comes to passing comments. An enemy will hardly mention the good points of the person she dislikes, only her shortcomings, for when we hate a person we're blind to all but the person's worst points. Friends may also be blind to a person's weaknesses...

They say that a friend would usually not tell a person about her shortcomings for fear that she'll hurt the person, but I think a true friend would do that if her friend really had serious flaws...only she'd put it across in a nice way, instead of saying harsh remarks and calling names. True friends would not have to worry about offending each other!!! I'd be very hurt if someone pretended there was nothing wrong with me in front of me, but went around talking bad about me behind my back.

That's not what i expect of St Nicks girls!!! I chose this school because my cousin told me how much he admired the girls from this school for their friendliness, maturity etc etc. But is judging a person based on others' opinions mature? NO. I'm pretty upset by this class.

I've learnt how deceitful ppl can be, and not to judge books by their covers. People who are nice in front of u harbour ill will and spite in their hearts, I don't even know who's good hearted and who's heart is black any more. I feel that I can't trust as much...why can't they be braver and stand up for their own beliefs? Must they go with the flow every time? Why let ppl influence u and control your thoughts? We can question things, don't you know? You don't have to believe everything! I feel that I have to watch what I say again, that i can't really be myself...all because of what ppl will think. Some ppl manage to twist everything I say and do against me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (maybe it's good practice for argumentative essay writing, I have to keep phrasing stuff so that it's difficult to rebute...)

I wonder what's wrong with ppl nowadays...of course they are those who are really nice and goodhearted, but somehow I don't have as much faith in people as I used too. I've seen the ugly sides of ppl too often. I guess that's why I'm withdrawing myself into my own world again...Beginning of the year, or even when I just started secondary school, I was so full of hopes and dreams. I came out of my shell, and tried to be friendly with people, and participate actively and everything. But now I hardly dare too any more. When I try to, ppl talk behind my back etc, speaking about me being show off and stuff...or saying I'm weird, because after a while I finally gather the courage to go up to them and TRY to strike up a conversation...and they think I have something up my sleeve I guess. It's hard trying to be plain friendly any more. At least for me. And now I have to worry about my own friends being prejudiced by mere association.

It's making me self conscious and less confident. When I want to voice my opinion in class, I don't really dare to. When the monitors/prefect ask what we think of the class etc, there's so much I want to say and voice out...but I don't dare to do so in front of the whole class, because there will be people who don't make any comment about what I say in class, but go around criticising it--and me--to their friends in other classes. But what I say is what I feel is the truth...

Maybe the reactions of other ppl is why Singaporeans in genral don't dare to speak up.

What happened to free speech? Do we have to practise self-censorship in such a prudish, rigid way? Why can't some ppl accept that others have different opinions from them? They automatically assume that their wway of thought is what the majority agrees with. And so they dislike those who show any disagreement.

...Rant over...

Posted my letter to Sho on Monday...I really hope he replies! Wonder if it'll be one of those copy letters instead of a personal one...

~I hope he realises I'm just teasing him when I told him I've been seeing squirrels around quite often lately (which is true), and seeing the squirrels somehow makes me think of him!! He only grudgingly admits that many people say he looks like a squirrel/chipmunk (the Jap name for squirrel, 'risu' also means chipmunk)! The other members of Arashi all agree he looks like one too...They also voted unanimously for Sho as the most "H' in the grp...  ¶ 9:55:00 午後

  Kei frm my guestbk: I was at the Liang Court Kino...bought a Jap to Jap dictionary and the Kaze Hikaru manga bk 14.

Darren: Right now I haven't come across any sites with English translations for those songs, but I put up a translation of 'Jidai" here: http://members.tripod.com/celste/Jidai.htm Pardon the bad translation! I'm in the midst of translating Pika*nchi, and Kansha kangeki Amearashi will follow soon...when my exams are over...but I think there are some Chinese sites with Chinese translations, why don't you do a search on Google? :)  ¶ 7:45:00 午後

  Yoz!! Haven't blogged in a long time...
Gotta study for exams. I want to do really, really well this year...
and guess what? I just got my Jap to jap dictionary yesterday, Finally, I don't have to turn on my computer every time I need to check up the definition of a word that's not in any of my dictionaries!!! (Though sometimes I still need a dictionary to read my dictionary...)

~~~Was browsing in Kinokuniya yesterday and came across a book about Johnny's...no, not episode books, at least episode books are harmless, they don't pry into the artiste's private lives or include rumours...

This book gave many details about the Maki Goto/Morning Musume and Johnny's (Arashi and Jrs) incidents...It left me feeling very, very disturbed...probably all rumours, I don't believe--don't WANT to believe that my idols would do such things...but you never know......yet, would someone like Sho have the time? Work and studies take up a lot of time, I doubt he'd actually do stuff like that...I won't repeat them here, for one they're rumours after all and 2. I don't want other fans who read this to feel as disturbed as I was...

But I'm still very worried...was surfing the net when I came across 2 or 3 Jap sites that stated that Nino smoked, and the ppl who wrote that said they had the pictures to prove it...pictures that apparently have been circulating online in Japan. But pictures can be doctored right? I didn't get to see any of that to judge, but I'll have to put my trust in him...but why Nino? In the book I read yesterday which published all those rumours under a 'strange texts' section, Nino and Aiba were the ones mentioned most in those 'strange texts' doing...stuff they shouldn't do....the rumours were circulated in 2000. They were only 17. The Maki Goto section in particular was too much to bear...they mentioned something about Sho doing something...despicable too....BUT THESE ARE JUST RUMOURS AND I HOPE THEY AREN'T TRUE!!!! I should trust them! Strangely, Ohno was the only one who wasn't involved in any of the rumours...guess the ppl who made that up just think he's too old for Maki :P And Maki Goto...either she's really a loose woman (although she was 15! in 2000) or she should really be pitied cuz so many ppl hate her they start such rumours abt her.

Another rumour said that Maki went after Sho (among other Jrs and Arashi members) but he turned her down..."I am not interested in a junior high student, and won't do anything that would let my fans down. Besides, I already have someone I like." If that's ture, good for him! (Though the 'girl I like' part makes my heart hurt.........................................)

Whatever the case, I still don't like Morning Musume. Especially Maki Goto--she could have clarified the rumours if they weren't true! The Johnny's groups too...but I heard that Arashi confronted Morning Musume after a performance on Music Station. They said stuff like "We exist because of our fans, stop those bad rumours!" etc...now I understand why Morning Musume fans and Johnny's fans usually dislike the other grp!!!

I don't think Johnny's fans would actually start rumours about their idols doing stuff they shouldn't do...right?

Anyway, I told Sho that I'd read some disturbing rumours and was really disturbed at first, but I realised that I should believe in them. And I added that as long as they didn't do anything seriously wrong, like break the law etc, I would keep supporting them.

*by the way, just because I keep talking about idol stuff etc doesn't mean I'm not studying hard!! In fact, I would lose my interest in studying if I talked about it all the time...I'd be sick of it. Some ppl get the mistaken idea that I don't care about my studies even though the exams are near as I talk nonstop abt Arashi, NEWS, etc etc... But hey, if I keep telling ppl "Oh, I have this test and that test and so much homework today..." "I am so worried about my OO test, think I'll get less than my usual,say,B3", doesn't it sound like bragging? I have a friend who keeps complaining abt how much homework and tests he has, how late he has to stay back, how heavy his bag is etc. He even sounds kind of proud of it, that he gets more hw than me on some days. Well, I'm starting to get rather sick of it...I wouldn't call that talking about homework. To me, talking about homework is discussing questions you don't know the answer to with your friends etc, encouraging each other on, trading study tips...NOT complaining and bragging about your marks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

**by the way, I don't get a B3 minimum on all my subjects. More like F9/D7 for maths...the rest are varying degrees of passes. That's all I'm going to say.

Will post my letter to Sho tml, included the postage coupon in it..hope he'll reply!!!

  ¶ 6:04:00 午後

  I just realised I made a serious mistake in my letter to Wen Han today (feel like such an idiot, but I just felt like writing a letter in Jap and so far i know only about 5 ppl, 2 who are not in my class, who would be able to understand what I wrote...). I wrote the wrong character for "Taka" in Masuda Takahisa's name, and remembered the wrong name for the 2nd member frm Kanjani8 who's in NEWS. *Hits herself on the head* I wrote Yasuda Shota, but it's Nishikido Ryo!!!! Arrrggghhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!She probably isn't as concerned abt thr Jrs as I am, so...I don't even know if she'll care if I got the names right or wrong :P But I feel so idiotic!!!

What do you think of people who tell big lies--big and obvious lies--to gain attention? Either *she* thinks I'm really that naive as to believe her or...I played along with her the 1st time she did that, but the 2nd time round I'm sick of it. If it's ur imagination, just say so, why try to delude urself and pretend it's real? I don't mind ppl fantasizing and 'play acting', as long as they admit they are. But *she*...just expects me to believe her and think it's the truth!! Ok, I fantasize abt ending up with Sho and all that. But not to the extend that I'd go, "Hey, I've got a boyfriend/husband/whatever and his name is Sho..." or "Actually, Sho and I are really gd friends" etc that sort of thing :P There's a big difference between play acting and telling an outright lie. I just feel it isn't right...anything that will mislead gullible ppl...  ¶ 8:12:00 午後

  Arashi;s 4th Anniversary!!! It's been 4 yrs since they debuted...Omedetou!!!!
I hope they go on and on and on 4ever :)

And now for the new group that debuted today...

NEWS!!! (Yup, that's their name)

Yamashita Tomohisa (YamaP)~~originally frm 4-tops
Koyama Keiichiro~~originally frm K.K.Kity
Kato Shigeaki~~originally frm K.K.Kity
Kusano Hironori~~originally frm K.K.Kity
Masuda Takahisa
Tegaki Yuya
Nishikido Ryo~~originally from Kansai 8
Uchi Hiroki~~originally frm Kansai 8
Moriuchi Takahiro

...but before the celebration, 2 of my favourite subgrps have been disbanded :P K.K.Kity and 4-tops...which have 3 members left each...I wonder what's going to happen to them? Another merge into a 6 member grp like Kat-tun? But what's left of 4-tops (Hasegawa Jun, Ikuta Toma and Kazama Shunsuke) is older than what's left of K.K.Kity...(Wataru Yokoo, Iida Kyohei etc...)  ¶ 9:25:00 午後

  I got my 'Hadashi no Mirai/Kotoba yori Taisetsu na Mono" single!!! Yesterday, I was out at Bugis with my mum (we went to the Kwan Yim temple, it was the 15th of the lunar month) when the HMV ppl called my handphone. Rushed down there right away--it wasn't even on the shelves yet!!! $18(of course, it was the Japan version), and worth every single dollar!!! The 'hidden' track where the guys talk about stuff is longer than the other hidden tracks in their previous singles. It was almost 10 minutes long!!!

Now I'll have to keep saving...for the Jap version of "Here We Go!" and the Pika*nchi soundtrack (which is back to its original $68...sigh...)

Might be going out with Aunt and Elvin-kor tml. It's been a while since we last went out together. I saw Elvin-kor (my older cousin) only once since he returned and that was when we went to the temple on my grandfather's death anniversary. Strange, his slight American accent was heavier than it was when we visited him in the US 2 years ago. He's graduated and now he's back! After a whole 2 month tour of Europe with his gf Catherine (who looks a little like Karen Mok! She's a Canadian-Chinese). Wonder what's going to become of them as he's working here and she, in the US, but I'm not going to pry. But oh, boy, he's one of the few who can help me with my awful A Maths!

I'm closer to my male cousins on my Dad's side than my female cousins on my Mum's side XD Don't ask why, I don't know either...

Celebrities...I used to be a great fan of Hollywood celebrities but now i find the Asian (especially the Japanese) media industry more appealing. You don't get as many scandals, and even if there are scandals they're much tamer than those that make the news in Hollywood. I've seen enough about how sleazy and tainted things can get in Hollywood and I'm sick of it. The Asian industry is cleaner. I can't stand those cheating celebs, the sex scandals, the violence, the multiple marriages. It just...doesn't appeal. They think they can do anything, and become too full of themselves, just because they are famous. It's the rule rather than the exception in the western industry--diva behavior, abuse, affairs, tantrums...fakes. What kind of example are they showing? If I were a celebrity I'd do my best to set a good example, knowing that fans would copy what I do etc because it'd be cool to them...

The Asian industry is different. Sometimes the media isn't too kind and write all kinds of rumours, but I still feel it's much tamer than in the west. In the west, you get Ben Affleck's stripper scandal, in Japan maybe the biggest scandal was the Johnny's sex abuse scandal around a decade back, but even that was a one off thing. What makes the news there: Goro Inagaki's arrest for traffic violations, Kimura Takuya's shotgun marriage to Shizuka Kudo(Johnny's idols are not supposed to date openly or get married while still active), Tomoya Nagase and Ayumi Hamasaki's relationship and them breaking up...What makes the news in Hollywood: Ben Affleck's Stripper Scandal! Leo DiCaprio and Naomi Campbell's naked romp! (That was in 1998, on National Enquirer)! It's sickening. Maybe it's the media's fault. No respect. But still?

In Asia, the Johnny's idols at least, try to get closer to their fans. They're friendly to them, respect them. Most show the media respect as well. In return, the media respects them (either that or Johnny's is too powerful and the newspapers don't dare to write anything defamatory). In the west? Swearing. Fan abuse.

I used to really like American culture etc, but now I just feel that morals are declining. It's disgusting. Why isn't swearing in English as impactin and shocking as swearing in other languages? Simple. Becuase swearing has become a habit. Swear words are used so often, it's lost its power and isn't as strong. And people in Asia, idolising the western culture, forget their own roots, their own culture, their own morals, copy their swearing western idols, and start swearing as well. They may or may not know how strong the word is, or how offensive it can be. In any case, they don't care, becuase swearing is what their idols do, and whatever idols do is cool.

The idols in Asia seem so much more human. They may smile in front of the camera, but there are times too when you know when they're upset...Sho nearly broke down in tears during an interview when he disclosed that fans camp outside his house, call up his university wanting to speak to him, trail him around, and how he feels that he's losing his privacy...they make us feel that they, too, are people just like us.

I'm just sick of certain aspects of the west...:P I used to think it was so cool,but now i feel sick whenever i read of it. Sure, stuff like that happens in Asia too, but it isn't publicised, because at least they know what shame is. I just feel that the media is more respectful here. I'd rather have a star who's a good role model despite human faults, rather than one who has affairs, takes drugs, swears, openly goes to prostitues and strip clubs, abuses ppl, bitches...Media personalities have a responsibility, and that is to teach the right things.

  ¶ 12:00:00 午前

  翔くん：
どうよ? シンガポールのEvonです､覚えませんか？ニケ月前手紙を送りました．．．覚えなくても大丈夫！

嵐の夏コンはちょうど終りましたばかりですね？行きたいのに、遠く過ぎるので行かなかった。いつ南東アジアに来てコンサートをやるか？南東アジアの嵐ファンたくさんありますよ、みんなあなた達のコンサートを見たい！いつかここに来て、お願いします!

"How's It Going”を買った、入りの曲が全部好きです！もし"アルバムに何曲が好き?"と聞いたら、絶対 すごく思考で "選られないよ、全部大好き"と答える。そのくらい好きです！もっと考えたら、やっと"BlueやパレットやLucky Manや Crazy Groundの王様などやどんな言葉で ．．．”最好きの曲を選るのを難しいね．．．新シングルの "ハダシの未来／言葉より大切なもの" も聞きました、やっぱり"すごい!” と想います！"ハダシの未来" は 70s時代の感じがあり、"言葉より大切なもの" を聞いたほとんど泣いたくらい感動．．．歌詞、強いですね。

So far I've written that much in my latest letter to Sho--just gotta finish it and post it before mid-october where they start filming Pika**nchi II ~Life is Hard dakara Happy~! Yup, 2 asterisks, it's in the title!  ¶ 3:00:00 午前

  Donna Kotoba De

Sho:Mazu wa kibarashi umi e dekakeyou
(I wanna hold you baby hold you baby)
Mado wa sono mama akeppanashite yukou
(Because I love you baby love you baby)
Nino:Tonikaku natsu ga niawanai
Aiba:Toki ni wa kurai yatsu ni mieru
Jun:Sonna boku ga kanashimu kimi wo
Ohno:Miterarenai no sa dakara soto e yukou

[I]First, let’s relax and go out to the sea
I wanna hold you baby hold you baby
Let’s leave the window open like that and go
Because I love you baby love you baby
At any rate it doesn’t seem like summer
Time is seen as a dark fellow
That me can’t see the unhappy you
So let’s go out! [/i]

Donna kotoba de kimi wo yuuki dzukeru
Konna boku demo
Kimi no yaku ni tateru kai?
[i]What words can put some courage into you?
Can this me
Even be of any help to you?[/i]

Nino:Dakara kono te to te wo awaseyou
I wanna touch you baby touch you baby
Aiba:Tsugi wa kono mama mabuta wo tojiyou
Because I love you baby love you baby
Jun:Iitai koto sugu osaete
Ohno:Kimi no mune ni tsumaru nanika wo
Sho:Torinozoku koto ga dekita nara
All:Kanashimi mo tsuka no ma
Sara ni happi de Go! Go!
[i]So join your hand with mine
I wanna touch you baby touch you baby
Then, while leaving it as that close your eyelids
Because I love you baby love you baby
If I could get rid of whatever is choked in your heart
And suppresses what you want to say
Your sadness would also, in a moment
Even more happily Go! Go! [/i]

Jun:Iu shika nai ima kono ba de
Ohno:Kimi ga suki sa mamoritai nda zutto
Sho:Tatoeba ima ga kowasareru no wo
Nino:Osorecha dame sa Kore kara Maji de yukou
[i]At this time now, I can’t do anything but say
I like you and want to protect you always
For example, if you’re afraid of what spoiled the present
It’s bad so From now let’s really go[/i]

*Donna kotoba de Kizu wa iyasareteku
Donna omoi de Nayami Kasaneteru
Donna kotoba de Kimi wo yuukidzukeru
Konna boku de mo
Kimi no yaku ni tateru kai?
[i]What kind of words can heal your wounds?
What kind of thoughts are burdening you?
What kind of words can give you courage?
Can this me
Even be of any help to you?[/i]

Oh! Baby! Sono wake no wake no wake
Oshiete yo naiteru wake no wake
Oh! Baby! Sono wake no wake no wake
Oshiete yo naiteru wake no wake
[i]Oh! Baby! For the reason of the reason of that reason
Tell me the reason of the reason you’re crying
Oh! Baby! For the reason of the reason of that reason
Tell me The reason of the reason you’re crying[/i]
(repeat *)

Ohno:Azarei zon (x3)
Wake no wake no wake
Mada sono kami kirenaide ite hoshii
Yuukidzukeru
Song song
Kowaresou na
Kimi no yaku ni tateru kai?
[i]An extremely striking zone
Because because because
I hope you still aren’t cutting that hair
Put courage into you
Song song
It seems to be breaking
Can I be of any help to you?[/I]


Dekiru Dake
(As Much as I Can)

Ano mise no keki ichigo no kazu ga hette
Koucha mo nanda ka koku ga naku natta yo ne
Sonna fuu ni kitto kawatte iku mono wo
Chotto samishii kedo Boku ra wa ukehaireteku
Amai kimochi ga kyuu ni nigaku natte iku
(The number of strawberries on the cakes in that shop have grown lesser
The red tea, too, has lost its thickness
Although it’s a little lonely, we have to accept
The things that have to change in that manner
The sweet feeling turns bitter in a hurry…)

*Kawatte iku koto wo naze Boku ra wa osoreru no kana
Kawaranai mono wo warau kuse ni
Dekiru dake boku no mama de
Itai to omoeru hibi wo
Mirai no boku wa donna fuu ni
Furikaeru n darou
(Why are we afraid of things that are changing?
Despite laughing at things that do not change?
While doing as much as I can,,
I wonder how the future me would look back
At the days I thought were painful.)

Gakkusei no toki wa Patto shinakatta yatsu da
Sore ga ima ja zenzen jibun ni kagayaiteru
Dakara ima wa chotto kurasu kai wa ikanai
Hikaku saresou de Go nen kurai ii darou
Mae wo muitara kyuu ni kaze ga tsuyoku naru
(When I was a student, I was an unattractive guy
That shines completely in me now
But now, I haven’t gone to class reunions for a while
I’d probably be compared with others, around 5 years is enough
If I head forward, the winds would get stronger in a hurry)

# Kawaranakucha ikenai no ni
Onnaji ayamachi bakari
Onaji you na koi ni rachi kitsudzuku
Dekiru dake boku no mama de itai to omou kimochi wa
Amaeka jibun rashisa na no ka?
Wakaranai keredo
(Even though I have to change,
I still always make the same mistakes
Falling for the same kind of love and getting hurt
While doing the best that I can,
I still don’t know if the feelings of thinking I’m in pain
Are sweet, or if I’m just being like myself)

Amai kimochi ga kyuu ni nigaku natte iku
(The sweet feelings turn bitter in a hurry…)
(repeat *)
(repeat #)
of course, 'Dekiru Dake' was one of the easier songs to translate. I cringe every time I read my own translation of Tomadoinagara...






  ¶ 2:26:00 午前

 

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	Low
Schizoid:	Low
Schizotypal:	Moderate
Antisocial:	Low
Borderline:	Low
Histrionic:	High
Narcissistic:	Moderate
Avoidant:	Low
Dependent:	Low
Obsessive-Compulsive:	Low
-- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! --

Listening to "Kotoba Yori Taisetsu na Mono"...So nice....:) As usual, I'm listening out for each member's voice, for the fun of recognising them...I love this song....Hope HMV starts selling it soon! As usual, I want the limited ed. version...
Jun and Ohno...Aiba and Jun...Sho's rap. It always amazes me how much guys voices change. It's been 4 years since Arashi 1st debuted; comparing their first single to their latest one...Sho's rapping voice has definitely grown deeper. It's more manly and sexy now! But of course, he was still a teenager when Arashi debuted.

And their faces change too :) Comparing pictures of them when they were Jrs, pictures taken when they first debuted, and pictures between then and now, they keep changing. What will they be like when they're as old as groups like Tokio, SMAP and V6? Ohno reminds me more and more of Tokio's Leader Shigeru Joshima :D They're starting to look alike, both are the 'leaders' of their respective group and both have a penchant for doing comical stuff, more so than the other members of their groups...

Someday, they'll have to retire...someday, they'll settle down, get married, have kids...but the one Sho ends up with won't be me...unless some miracle happens. I can only admire him from afar...Someday, I'll lose interest in him, maybe even forget him...and maybe someday, I'll suddenly remember again, and try to find out what happened to him...

I hope they last as long as Shonentai...continuing on even after their peak

I wish I were a better translator:P The ppl at iro-asenaide must be wondering what I'm trying to do, putting up all those bad translations. Some stuff is so hard to put across with its original feel and meaning...when i try to do so it becomes ungrammatical. Well, I'll keep trying, but I feel so bad for putting bad translations...:P

  ¶ 2:23:00 午前

  翔くん大好きです！早くファンレターを書いてあげべくよ！Ｐｉｋａ*ｎｃｈｉ ＩＩの撮影始まり前送る方がいいよ！翔くん、ご返信をくれてください！！！  ¶ 11:09:00 午後

  Finally, I get a chance to blog!!!!

Japan Day #2 wasn't as successful as the 1st one...maybe cuz we started so early (10am). Both Gwen and I were really sleepy...trying out the tester food at the Takashimya basement did help though!!!

*By the way, Gwen got called 'Auntie' by this stallholder at the basement--the lady thought she was my Mum!!! Gwen was so upset!! :P *

Saw a group of Jap girls at the Takashimaya Cold storage--they must be students frm the Jap sch. Kind of followed them(they didn't notice) out of curiousity for a really, really short while before we started feeling bad about doing so, they were going to think, "Who are these 2 weird ppl following us about?" if we trailed them any longer...

Arnd an hour in Kino, then on to the Shaw centre supermarket...where we each got bottles of Livita which tasted a little too much like COUGH SYRUP!!!

Then on to Liang Court, where we had our bento lunch (I'm so sorry Gwen!!! We should have checked out that food section before we went ahead and bought frm the food stall...but at least it was a warm lunch right? the bento from the food section was kinda cold...OK, if there's ever a next time, let's eat udon instead)

Stayed in the Liang Court Kino for a while before going on to Changi Airport. And all the way I was talking about Arashi and the Jrs' really busy schedules and how 'extraordinary' Sho was to be able to juggle school and work and still do well in school...mind you, he's in Keio U Keio U Keio U!!! Not some shaby university but the prestigious Keio U!!

Watched the planes land for a while...wow...really made me wish I was flying on them too! (OK,OK, let's stowaway in the baggage cabin or something someday. Wear clothes and jackets that will keep u warm at temperatures 100 degrees below zero...or maybe we'll disguise ourselves as flight crew and sneak on board? :D)

I really wanted to go to the Japanese University talk on Tuesday but couldn't...Mum wanted me to finish up my Math assessments :P sorry Gwen! Did I sound like I was trying to avoid u? I was afraid u'd think so...u're still my gd friend ok? (hope I don't sound too lesbian here)

Speaking about lesbian....mwahahahaha at the Liang Court supermarket the ady selling mochi thought we were lesbians!!!!!! "Why don't u too get different flavours so that u can feed each other..."(or did I hear wrongly?) All because I was wearing a skirt and Gwen was wearing pants!!! I mean, c'mon, good friends of the same sex can go out together without having to be lesbian!!!

Gwen (rather mischievously *sweatdrop* :D) suggested acting lesbian 'just for fun'. I was like, "Oh, no, oh, no, I am NOT going to do so and u know it!"

She: "Come on, just for fun!"
Me:*runs away* "No NO NO NO NO NO NO!!! I'm not lesbian and I'm not going to act as if I were" Call me a coward but if anyone saw us.... I'm straight and proud of it! LOL. If it was a guy I was with and we had to act like we were bfgf for some reason, yup, i'd do it, but lesbian, even for fun? No.....

I just like being the rose among the thorns. Haven't u noticed that? LOL

Hadashi no Mirai/Kotoba Yori Taisetsu na Mono!! Love the Hadashi no Mirai PV! And I got my October Potato with Arashi on the cover + their concert report!!! *hugs her issue of Potato* and cool pinups of Arashi *especially* Sho!! Though there's a pic where they look as if they're wearing too much eyeliner...or maybe it's the powder...   ¶ 10:48:00 午後

  I wrote a lot up here but it didn't get posted!!!!! WAAAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! My blogging mood is gone...:P

Japan Day #2 tml...Liang Court, Takasimaya and the Shaw centre supermarket!! And of couyrse, our own 'Narita' Airport--Changi airport!! (So awed by the airforce show today...)

Anonymous: I think both Maybelline and I were at fault, it wasn't all her or me...I admit I was inconsiderate and selfish to her quite a few times...there were times where I think I could have been a better friend...but if she really talked about me like that behind my back.................it isn't what a friend would do. One of my least favourite kinds of ppl are those who'd badmouth their friends to gain acceptance with others...friends are friends, and u don't go around suaning them...friends who do that are not real friends. If they don't like u, they aren't ur friends. Because friendship requires mutual like.  ¶ 9:54:00 午後

  I am so gonna fail today's Chinese test! (and tmr's A maths too, if I say online for too long :P)

Anyway, for Gwen and I, Saturday was Japan Day!!!!!!
It was really crazy--we decided to spend one day (ok, one afternoon) going to all the Jap places we could...so we ended up going to places like the Takashimaya basement, Kinokuniya, Liang Court etc etc...LOL I didn't know the takashimaya basement sold THAT many kinds of Jap food! Including traditional desserts and all that!! Really wish we tried the candy and all that...looked so delicious and tempting. But neither of us had enough cash to get them, they were that ex:P We went around trying tester food, from chocolates to mooncakes to snacks frm Umeya:D And that was after spending hours(? Ok, nearly 2 hours) in the Orchard Kinokuniya, mostly in the Jap books section, looking through their school guidebooks and stuff like that. Tanoshii yo!!

Then we headed to Far East Plaza, where I got 2(!) Arashi posters!!! Gwen was traying to find some anime posters too, but they didn't have the anime she wanted :P By the time we set of for Liang Court it was around 4 or 5 pm...

And we spent ages in the Liang Court Kinokuniya!!! Somehow it felt more homey than the Orchard one, it isn't as intimidating--no extremely high shelves all over the place, and it's less crowded. Again, there were people speaking Jap in the Jap section (Gwen, did you hear them? I know it's bad to eavesdrop but it helps my listening skills in the language). This gd-looking Jap guy in his 20s or so was talking to his friend about marriage(I heard the word "Kekkon..." but didn't pay that much attention to the rest) So sad, the October issue of Myojo was sold out, but crazy me went and placed 3 advanced orders for the October issues of Duet, Wink Up and Myojo!! Liang Court Kino is the only one that allows advance reservations...I got the novel Nino's movie "Ao no Honoo" is based on!!! Couldn't resist...

We went down to the supermarket but it was kind of late so we didn't spend a lot of time there:P But don't worry, we'll get back there and spend...hm...2,3 hours(?) there on our NEXT Japan Day which will be next week! Can't wait!!! We'll probably also go to the Japanese School and stare inside there from the outside("like peeping toms", as Gwen said) Mwahahahahahahahaha....next week is our Golden Week!! We're going to have as many Japan Days as possible!!

Can't wait can't wait can't wait!!!

It's all ok between Maybelline and I now...just a misunderstanding. So sorry!! I really thought u'd backstabbed me...*bows really low* Moushi wake arimasen!! But the truth is, we aren't as close as before...that's the only think I regret now.

Jaa, better get going  ¶ 12:53:00 午後