I really feel like typing in Jap, but the school computer browser doesn't have the Global IME [rogramme I need...:P Romaji should be ok right? It's easier for those who want to check up the dictionary to do so anyway...
I don't know what was wrong with me the past few days. I just felt so angry, so upset and so alone...it was as if everyone was running away from me:P. You guys don't know that if I don't like a person for very strong reasons, I'll have those feelings of dislike for a very long time. Luckily, usually if I dislike a person for something, it'll fade away quite fast (usually just a matter of hours or minutes) and everything will be ok again.
There's this person--no one I'm particularly close to, but someone in the class...I wouldn't call her a friend, just an acquaintance. I get the feeling she doesn't really like me, though one of my friends is quite close to her. Well, I thought we could be friends, and I tried being friendly, but she thought it was scary that i tried to talk to her when she wanted some peace and quiet(and how was I supposed to know that? :(), and so we haven't really spoke. Somewhere last week i wanted to help her with something, seeing that she was alone. But she ran away to join another group--"I'd rather save myself". Maybe she didn't mean that much but I was quite hurt...
Jaa, kono hito wa honto ni yasashii onna desu kedo, demo itamasetai toki, hontou ni itamarerimasu yo. I know that no one will be liked by everyone in the world, there'll always be someone who is bound to dislike us no matter what, yet it still hurts, especially when they show it so openly. Yet isn't it better than if someone hides her dislike under a friendly face? Then when you find out how much that person really hates you, it hurts even more.
You asked me if I was okay when I hit the table in a fit of anguish. I told you "no, I'm fine" but actually I wasn't.
OK, a lighter side. Yesterday, I had this really crazy dream! I dreamt that I was trying to phone someone yet I accidentally dialled the wrong number....and reached a member of V6: Okada Junichi. Don't ask me why I dreamt of V6(why not Arashi? Why not Sho? :P:P:P), I mean, I like V6's songs but I'm not really big over them as I am with Arashi. Anyway, when I tried to redial I got Ken Miyake...
enough, gtg