The class seems so much more comfortable lately, a few ppl who didn't really like me seem to have warmed up now...2 of them smiled back when I greeted them, though they looked kind of surprised.
But on the other hand, someone who's a good friend doesn't seem to like me as much as before...she seems rather irritated at me almost all the time...sometimes, i wish that there was someone who understands all my habits...someone who shares most of the same interests...someone whom I can sing Jap songs with! :) Someone i can talk about Johnny's to without having to explain what the whole Johnny's thing is about. And who's interested. I've always been singing in class, especially when I'm in high spirits. But ppl don't always like it. I hate being shut up. But I just have to or I'll be irritating them even further. But when I just want to sing.......................................................
Not everybody can understand that, right? Whe you want to do what you want, but have to stop/refrain frm it just because other ppl don't like it. Especially when what you're doing is harmless. Like singing. or telling jokes. Or chatting.
I guess a loner will always be a loner huh? But why is it that when I wish there was someone to talk to, or if I want company, there's no one, and when I want to be left alone, she insists on chatting with me? I guess she probably feels the same too, which is why she seems to want to hang out more with someone else now. But when she does that, I feel left out and discarded.
I wish December and Lim Xian and Alisia were in the same school as me...but will our friendship have lasted?
Sho...
Ok, I admit I have a huge crush on him. Don't laugh, but in my fantasies, I was
the one for him... pretty far fetched right? But hey, it was a fantasy, though I wish it could come true...but lately, it's as if I've woken up from a dream...I don't know him in person, who he is in public could be vastly different from his private self...(watching 'Mukodono' gave me the idea). And besides, he doesn't even know who I am. In my dreams, we end up together. In my dreams, we were made for each other...
But I have to wake up...
It won't be me
Unless fate just meant it to be...
No one can tell
But the one you fall for won't be me
The one you marry won't be me
The truth hurts, the more i think of it
But I can't escape, it's a fact.
In my dreams, and only in my dreams
We were together...
You knew me
But do you really? Even if you did...
I'm still just a fan
One in millions, all dreaming the same
It won't be me, I'm too far away
Do i even really know you?
There's so much you have to hide, away from the public eye
Are you what you seem to be?
I don't know, and perhaps I never will
Though I wish i could
Someday, someone will touch your heart
And win it, just like in my dreams
Someone who matters a lot, someone who knows who you really are
But let's face it--it probably won't be me.